Have you ever seen a squirrel that was completely black?
Kristal_Rose 1.3.30
               Wow cool, I've never heard of such a creature. I've seen a pair of ring-tailed cats in the wild,
               that's the rarest I've seen.
               Oh wow! I hear a pack of new kittens next door. I'll have to investigate. Perhaps one will be left on
               my doorstep in a box. Do I have room?
               I heard a condor layed an egg by the grand canyon just as they're considering making that a no fly
               zone for air tourists. That was timed to celebrate my golden feathar meditations and presenting to
               HUD the possibility of creating Amish reservations or 'eco-sufficient communal urban ruralification
               districts'.
they
               Yep, a few years ago... I even called the zoo and asked them about it since I had never seen one. He
               was just playing in the trees with regular old gray squirrels... The zoo lady said that they are from
               further north like Canada and they are starting to be seen more and more often in Ohio.
Kristal_Rose replies to they
               Global warming
romkey replies to Twistermime
               PINK!!!
Twistermime replies to ASexyBabe
               HEROIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
ASexyBabe replies to Twistermime
               oH mY GOd!!!!!
Kristal_Rose replies to romkey
               Pink Herons  (Flaming-gulls)

Do the recent outbreaks in livestock make you question how safe it is to eat meat?
Kristal_Rose 1.3.30
               It's natures way of saying we should:
               1) Be vegetarians,
               2) Preserve rainforests and stop global warming,
               3) Stop turning vegetarian animals into cannibals,
               4) Stop bio-engineering of coal and oil into livestock (including human) feed.

You have two options: not eating for 24 hours or not using the bathroom for 24
 hours (holding it). Which do you choose?
Kristal_Rose 1.3.30
               I'd just been wondering why the neighbor toddler girl was crying today (like she does all the time).
               She just walked up to my window and said:

               "No water for no one, that's why."

               If you could hear on the same plane as I, you'd be devastated. My prayers have never been enough.

Politics interfering with personal relationships: What are your political leanings,
 generally speaking, and do you find it hard to have warm personal feelings about
 someone with political leanings very different than yours?
Kristal_Rose 1.3.30
               I was just debating policy with the director of HACLA (LA rental assistance & projects for 40,000
               clients). If you can't compassionately respect people for doing the best they see how, you'll never
               get them to respect your own view.

Kristal_Rose replies to kaleb777 1.3.30
               We do avoid cars when possible. Websites and email are more green than snail mail and pamphlets.
               Why don't natives take up migratory farming and hunting? Because the damn freeways are built on
               the best land. Underground, skyscrapers, or at least rooftop gardens would improve air temp,
               humidity, O2, & global warming in urban areas. Bullet-trains, busses running like trains, and
               computer logistics for cell phone taxi sharing including furniture/grocery taxi busses would remove
               the need for private cars.

What words describe your current romantic relationship(s)?
wavez2000
               30, single, use to search, but quit, I enjoy life and if I find him I do, and if i dont, i havent lost a
               thing. I am content.
Kristal_Rose replies to wavez2000
               Unless you live in a plane of sustained grace, I'd think it time you ask the big chief for a favor. If
               you have a life of lessons as most of us do, there's little more challenging or rewarding as a
               relationship. At least you've had the chance now to build love in casual non-physical encounters. I
               imagine that was one of the many justifications for celibacy. Does your faith have an equivalent of
               'see God in your spouse'?
wavez2000 replies to Kristal_Rose
               I am conetnt..and i was engaged to be married, he was a jerk in the end.. god/big chief has given me
               so much, im happy, i use to worry about wether i'd get married or not, but ive passed that phase
               and know that god has it all under controll. Yes i want my future spouse (if any) to know jesus as his
               lord and go to church..
               - When i was engaged to be married, in the beginning it was great, i loved him and desired him,but
               believed to wait til i was married, like i still do..he turned into a jerk with no feelings other than
               what was between his legs..if he really loved me, he would have waited..this isnt to say i didnt "make
               out" or things of that nature with him..i did love him deeply..but there was a line i drew..i'd quit when
               it got to heavy..why?? becuse i want to know that i did what was right in god's eyes and mine..
               - so no there's nothing wrong with what im doing..and i dont need to ask god for a favor..and i dont
               have to have sex with anyone before im married. 30 or 80...it is all good in god's eyes..and mine..
               i dont need a justification for saving myself..or waiting..
Kristal_Rose replies to wavez2000
               I don't think you understand much of what I'm asking. I too only had sex with the woman I married
               and one I at least thought I'd be marrying, and that is still my stance. There is a plane of
               consciousness/reality which is totally in the moment and all is your interaction with God, no one else.
               If I lived there permanently it would be alright to sleep with whomever, but I do not. I live mostly
               on the interpersonal time & history -based plane, where I make commitments and ask the same of
               my partner.
               Whethar or not your partner accepts Jesus has little to do with whethar you are able to see Jesus
               manifest in others interactions with you. Sufiism for instance is heavily about that, Christianity for
               some reason has shrouded the grand scale manifestation of God on Earth and within each other
               practically since it's inception. Miracles are no longer, God can't be experienced till you die, leave
               the physical, and go to heaven. There are of course so many references to the Logos and other
               manifestations of God we could be interacting with still in the bible, but most Christian sects
               de-emphasise such presence. I was wondering about your sect specifically. As to the justification
               of celibacy, again I was asking you to second guess the motivation of your faith. Christianity is
               loaded with more tests than all other religions combined, things where if you follow the
               requirements diligently you will learn something new about your consciousness, and find that the
               requirement was more of a learning trick than some purposeless mandate to be followed for it's
               own sake.
               Catholicism replaced people directly interacting with God, with interacting with a hierarchy of
               saviours, holy-men, sages, the pope, priests, etc. Part of that doctrine included 'men' being subject
               to God, and 'women' being subject to 'men'. The only virtue I see in that system is it's admission
               that God's will can be manifest through others. The hindu teach tales of loving an army of demons
               that come to defeat you and consequently their swords turn to flowers.
               I'm sorry if I steer you away from personal issues to theosophic contemplations. But I feel they
               should be the same in the life of a responsible person on a holy path.
               My basic question stands: Do you consciously interact with God, and can you see folks like your
               suitor as a direct result of that interaction, if not even a vehicle for tho Logos itself?
               My motive is not (too) judgemental. I know the mechanics of several paths. When I discover the
               exact flavor of yours, I'd simply like to provide food for thought that might get you a rung up your
               ladder. In the process, I might get a new understanding of what some people do.
wavez2000 replies to Kristal_Rose
               I just dont believe in sex till I am married, due to religous and personall beliefs. If the man hasnt
               accepted jesus as his lord..jesus isnt within his heart and life, I dont compromise on that, nor do i
               debate other's beliefs, i respect them, like i respect yours..I wont be swayed or compromise my
               beliefs. Thanks for your replys my friend..
Kristal_Rose replies to wavez2000
               Ouchh! sorry.
               I had your first point anyhow.
               Aren't you at least allowed to examine and understand your own 'why's and 'what's by comparative
               analysis? After all, the same book could have made you a Baptist or Christian Scientist.
Kristal_Rose
               Content, hmmm........
smurf replies to wavez2000
               Good for you, girl I'm with ya! Stick with your Faith, and you will be rewarded beyond
               comprehension There is a special guy out there for you, who will be (and is!) your perfect partner.
               No Compromise.
smurf replies to Kristal_Rose
               Miracles are no longer? Wrong! I've seen them with my own eyes. I have personally witnessed God
               move in ways that are nothing but miraculous.
               Whether or not our partners accept Jesus is fundamental. God said in His Word that we should not
               be yolked with unbelievers. And that is practical, as it is extremely difficult to be "one" with a
               spouse, yet not be able to share absolutely everything with them.
               God IS experienced on this earth - I have felt/sensed Him move in my life in ways that are totally
               supernatural.
Kristal_Rose replies to smurf
               My every moment is a miracle, but alas I've met so many christians who would deny such and and
               even quote the bible to justify their denial. I couldn't ask much better of you and was never
               worried about you anyhow; the proof is in the pudding, and you have it. I would only wish that people
               could see that all the morals, spirit , and consciousness of true christians are present in other
               brands of believers as well. What would have been the point if Jesus spent all his time exclusively
               with those who were already believers?
Kristal_Rose replies to smurf
               Besides, I wasn't provoking her to defend her faith because I disagreed with it as much as
               because I like people to have a profoundly deep knowledge of the what's and why's of their faith.
smurf replies to Kristal_Rose
               It's such a shame that people don't believe that every moment is a miracle. I agree with you - not
               many people, including Christians, think that way. Every breath I take is a gift from God. He could
               take that away in a second. I continually thank God for all His blessings, even if they don't seem so
               great at the time.
               Keep smiling, Kristal_Rose :-)
Kristal_Rose replies to smurf 1.3.31
               Thank you. I had two more miracles last night. I just got a bass guitar a week ago, and within two
               hours went from sliding to find one note at a time, to having both hands playing one-handedly in
               unison running up and down the fretboard like sandcrabs. I then went into the laundry room and
               found I could have a wild duet with a cricket there. I had another a few minutes ago. Moments like
               these make you laugh and cry with ecstasy. Although God's cut me off in the past for taking it for
               granted, I believe I am made of God as are all the events that surround me, and that my purpose is
               that God may appreciate creation through my eyes and bring forth the same in others.

Close your eyes, count to five and then open them again, what did you see?
Kristal_Rose
               Just at that second a kitchen timer went off to remind me of my laundry, and I saw a white beaded
               curtain that rains on my computer.
               Oh, you mean when they're closed - radiating pulsars.
Kristal_Rose
               I bet this survey will get interesting.

Do you believe that your 'good days' wouldn't have been as good if not for the
 'bad days?'
Kristal_Rose
               Water days only feel that way after going through the fire.
Kristal_Rose replies to
 BlueberryMuffin
               So what's up, wisdom over the years should be making things better? Lost your innocence and
               haven't adapted?
julianapostate
               You dont need to contract aids to feel how good sex is. You dont need to be crippled in an accident
               to appreciate having legs. You dont need to get the shit beat out of you for no good reason to
               appreciate being respectfully ignored. At least I dont.
Kristal_Rose replies to julianapostate
               Three months ago my slipped disc made it take several minutes just to attempt getting out of bed.
               That made me appreciate leaping from boulder to boulder on a hike last week afterwards. I also
               recall how mesmerized I was looking at everything after I got glasses.
               Are you telling me that a walk in the sunshine doesn't feel better after you've been cooped in the
               house for awhile, or that food isn't relished more when you're hungry. If you live in the moment,
               I'll believe you.
SueBee replies to Kristal_Rose
               touché
BlueberryMuffin replies to Kristal_Rose
               My happiest moments are sometimes brought crashing to earth by the horror of a jolting memory.
               As much as I try to put things behind me, the traumas I've been through still cause me nightmares
               and occasional attacks of irrational fear. I was a lot happier without all that baggage to spoil my
               moments.
Kristal_Rose replies to BlueberryMuffin 1.4.07
               Alas, as high minded as I preach, I myself have a nagging squelching crushing spirit that often says
               "don't enjoy", "find something wrong with", "hide in tears" whenever something I really wanted
               comes true. Conversely, thankfully, when situations are miserable, I often remember that I am
               free to feel any way I want, and deal with my hardship full of laughter and inner delight. The best
               thing to do is to gather steam and be constantly vigilant about having a more joyous life until it
               beromes a habit.
               One experiment you might try is to take or make momentos of all your traumas, and sweetly kiss
               each one, recognising and thanking it for it's role in making you a stronger person, then perhaps
               laugh as you wave farewell. Any time you remember a trauma, remember that you laughed it away
               in a farewell victory and will never have to experience it again. Our experiences tend to cyclically
               repeat, like some video game. Next time there will be no trauma if you are prepared to rewrite the
               outcome.
 
 

Do you have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ?
julianapostate
               How can one have a relationship to someone who may or may not have ever existed and who, if he
               indeed existed has been dead for centuries?
Kristal_Rose replies to julianapostate
               There are several interpretations of Christ (man, spirit-entity, logos, godhead). I presumed that he
               had joined the collective unconscious, but found through a tarot dialogue that he indeed continues
               existence as an independent entity. His card is the King of Swords and his message is the
               Heirophant. I stood once in front of a white buffalo at a native gift shop where a CD chanted Yah he
               vah hey - Yah he vah hey and was flooded with what I realised was the natives Great White Spirit,
               Yahwey (ancient testament God), YodHeVavHe (Jewish tetragrammaton became Jehovah).
               You exagerrate your viewpoint in anger, and feign ignorance. I am both christian and anti-christian.
               You wanna talk about this stuff, then let's talk. Don't obscure your own viewpoint from yourself in
               reaction to fundamentalists. Self-programming, you could have fooled me. Unless of course you
               want to act like this.

How would you spend your last day on earth?
Kristal_Rose 1.4.01
               Loading the arc? I answered this a year or two ago in depth.
               Cranking my senses up 10000% and dematerializing into pure prayer.

smurf
               Gosh. I think I would write letters to all my friends and family, telling them how wonderful they
               are. I would write especially long letters to my Mum, Dad, li'l sister and SO, and tell them how
               much I adore them. I would spend most of the remaining time with my SO, and some with my
               parents. Jeez - this is so soppy!!
               I think I'd want to do something illegal too, just to see what it felt like, but I wouldn't have the
               guts!
Kristal_Rose replies to smurf
               I let out this anguished moan of "Oh, Smurf". Did the apostles think it was cool to stay locked in
               jail? You do what God would have you do for yourself and others. If that's harmless recreation, so
               be it. That which feels good on your conscience shouldn't change on your last day here.

anonymous #1
               I WOULD DO ALMOST EVERYTHING i WAS AFRAID TO DO.
Kristal_Rose replies to anonymous 1.4.01
               Let's start with "Is participating anonymously in a group of friends (albeit some can be challenging)
               really what you want to be doing?"

Jemmy
               Doing things with my family and friends that I've always dreamed of doing.
Kristal_Rose replies to Jemmy 1.4.01
               Do it now and make room for more dreams. If that can't be done now then move on to the new
               dreams.

Kristal_Rose 1.4.01
               Live every moment like you need to make the most of it. It's not like we get just one day to live.
               Most of us will be stuck in a bed or caught by surprise on our last day here. Hopefully it will have
               been so great and you will have learned to lived with no regrets that by the time you move on, you'll
               be glowing, or have left already anyhow.

Do you collect antiques?
Kristal_Rose
               Like you wouldn't believe.
               Almost everything I use is from 1837 to 1970, excepting things that did not exist then. I like to
               have the first and last of things that embody movements in the arts, sciences, culture, metaphysical
               realms, etc.
they
               Small antique glass bottles... mostly glass medicine bottles.
Kristal_Rose replies to they
               I dug through my perfume bottles to find something for slide guitar. It had to have concave sides.
               The useful vertically ridged concave example I found turned out to be called "Ode" from Guerlain
               Paris. You gave links earlier. Do you trade and sell, or just collect? Know of any good sources in
               violet glass?
they replies to Kristal_Rose
               I would never trade or sell anything I have collected, I couldn't bear to.. I keep everything. I have
               an old perfume bottle too.. unfortunately, it has a paper label and it's hard to read the company...
               Something in London. I keep an eye out on ebay, and a friend's mom sells me some cool pieces
               sometimes. (she sells old things that she got at yard sales for pennies at flea markets for a lot of
               money)
msgman
               I don't collect things as such, although I've got a couple of family heirlooms. My dad has got loads
               of stuff which have been handed down from his parents, grandparents, etc, and some if it is pretty
               valuable. I expect that I'll get it all when he dies, and then I'll probably sell it because I've got
               nowhere to keep it (unless I become considerably richer in the meantime).
Kristal_Rose replies to msgman
               Consider them their own foundation. Some of them might have to be sold to support rent for the
               rest. Loan them to a restoration project if you can't afford to showcase/use them yourself. You'll
               never be able to replace things that have been in your family, and many of them have left their
               heritage on you or any children might have. I have my great-grandmothers oil paints and a 250 year
               old cuckoo clock from my German dad that I repaired as early as age 7. I became an artist and
               engineer.
hildagard
               No, but I liked to. The mansion in Austria (I swear, it will be mine when I grow up, even if I have to
               kill my whole family), that belongs to my grandfather this moment is full of those.
Kristal_Rose replies to hildagard
               You too? Mine's a castle in Krefeld Linn, WestPhalen Germany (so said my dad long ago). I'm not
               sure which castle. I just started researching last night. It might be the local art museum now which
               bears my family name.

               I believe I just became a 3D Viewmaster Reel vendor on eBay. I bought stuff and will have to
               recoup my expenses. I've put together a database to keep track of dealers and auction prices.

Describe the genitals you are wearing right now.
Kristal_Rose
               A virtual vagina, a penis that I don't think about much. Breasts too.
topper replies to Kristal_Rose
               What's a virtual vagina like?
romkey replies to topper
               virtual cunnilingus, of course
anonymous #5
               covered with some neatly-trimmed red fuzz and decorated with a tasteful small stainless steel
               captive bead ring with a translucent purple bead through the hood of my clit.
Kristal_Rose replies to topper
               ripe and innocent or hot and bothered.
               Here's a poem I wrote once:
               Saddle sore
               Roping 'em in
               Sometimes you just want something to gush in it.

               The main difference is you can't actually use it; although I've had 9 hours of (pseudo-lesbian)
               tantric sex in which I was thousands of personalities, 90% women, being everything from a
               cheerleader to an elf raped by a troll to making love to a pure black lilith to being the virgin mary of
               blue aura basking in pure flames of hell. I discovered the last self portrait I did as a man actually
               contained spread legs with a vagina in the form of blue mary in flames. I feel my virtual ovaries and
               think of nursing when I hear babies cry. I've still never slept with a man, and will wait, if ever till I
               get an operation. In the mean time, I pursue women. I'm not too worried about it anymore. I've
               decided that I'll either find a woman to marry, and let her decide what lower organ I have, or if I
               make some money before then, have the operation and still leave the decision as to which gender to
               pursue open. Since all the hormones and the 8 years of religious celibacy before that, it takes 10
               minutes to get that relic up and running anyhow. It barely exists in my mind these last couple years.
Kristal_Rose replies to anonymous 1.4.07
               How delightful. I once designed black lace undies designed to hold open 4 ring piercings.
Kristal_Rose replies to anonymous 1.4.07
               Truth or dare. "Who are you?" x
 

You are the genie (jinn/djin) of the brass lamp. How do you grant the three wishes?
smurf
               Pray. Very, very hard!
Kristal_Rose replies to smurf 1.4.07
               That's what we did tonight (pray for world peace). It was the first full moon of Aries, not to
               different from the popes calculation of Easter technique. It felt like the whole building was going to
               levitate, and when I closed my eyes during meditations, I could still see many of the people as white
               lights. My head still feels weird, like it's full of water pressure.

A question about abortion and vegetarianism:
Kristal_Rose
               mostly pro-life, mostly vegetarian.
               This reminds me of an outrageous trig teacher back in highschool that took surveys to compare
               things like religion and test scores. On his first day of class he would bet anyone that at least 2
               people in the class had the same birthday (and then show us the probability math of why the bet was
               in his favor).
               I'll be curious about the results of this one.
Enheduanna
               I'm mostly a vegetarian; I do eat fish. I'm also pro-choice, although I don't know if I would choose
               to have an abortion myself. I'm guessing the survey creator thinks that being a vegetarian and
               being pro-life would be consistent, but I'm also guessing it's more likely that vegetarians would be
               pro-choice, since both seem to be more "liberal" choices. My reason for not eating meat is that I
               won't eat anything I wouldn't kill with my own hands; someone who feels this way might not feel that
               abortion amounts to the same thing. Abortion isn't about killing. It's about a woman's right to be in
               control of her own body.
kaleb777
               Pro-life, eat meat.
kaleb777 replies to Enheduanna
               Abortion isn't about killing? Why do they need to kill the fetus then?
Enheduanna replies to kaleb777
               I'm not saying that they're not killing something. I'm saying that for many people who are
               pro-choice, that's not the issue. For many of us, it's about a woman's right to choose whether to
               have some living cells in her body develop into a viable baby or not. It's about a woman being able to
               decide what happens to her own body. The reason why the two sides of the argument can't come to
               some agreement is that they're arguing about different things; for most pro-lifers, all they're
               focusing on is whether or not it's murder. How can they resolve the issue when they're not even
               talking about the same thing?
kaleb777 replies to Enheduanna
               If a baby, fetus or whatever you want to call it is able to survive outside the mother for 15 minutes,
               then I would say it is already a "viable baby". Do you believe that a women who grows tired of
               feeding a new baby from her breast, or who can no longer have the same lifestyle as she had prior
               to the birth of the baby (a common reason given for abortion), or is suffering from sleep
               deprivation should be given the choice to kill it because it's her life and body that are being
               affected? What about the rights of the baby? It's too bad the pro-death people can never ask the
               baby what they want.
dab
               And thus Enheduanna's contention that the two sides aren't talking about the same thing is
               demonstrated.

romkey replies to kaleb777
               an unborn fetus is not at all the same thing as a baby. a first trimester fetus is in no way viable
               outside of the womb. You're comparing apples to oranges.
Enheduanna replies to kaleb777
               Again, I didn't say that if it's viable it's OK to abort it; I don't. I'm not sure I agree that it's
               viable if it will only survive 15 minutes; I think it needs to have a better chance than that. And of
               course I don't think that it's OK for a woman to kill her baby because she's bored of breast
               feeding it. Coming up with such ridiculous scenarios only trivializes the issue and irritates people. I
               don't know where I think the line between "a bunch of cells" and "a living being" is; it's a really
               complicated issue. But I do think there is a point at which it is acceptable for a woman to abort, and
               at that point, the issue is not murder, because there's no person to speak of murdering (killing
               cells, yes, but murder, no). It's about the woman's right to choose whether she wants to have a
               baby or not. And don't give me that crap about "she should have decided before she had sex,"
               because we both know that's not how it works. Sex is not purely procreative. And accidents happen.
               Rape happens. Yes, people should think before they have sex, but there should be avenues for
               ending an unwanted pregnancy. No, women should not use abortion as a method of birth control. But
               they should nonetheless have the option of abortion available to them. Would you rather they have
               babies that they don't want, can't provide for, or would be so severely crippled that their quality of
               life would be incredibly low? Would you rather the mother die in order to bring the baby into the
               world?
               I think there's a lot more gray area to the argument than anyone likes to admit.
kaleb777 replies to Enheduanna
               I think the line is drawn when the "bunch of cells" has a heart beat.
               More babies are aborted in Australia than are born, and I'm sure the US has a similar situation.
               There aren't that many rapes or birth defects. There is either a huge batch of faulty condoms out
               there or people are too lazy to worry about birth control because they can always terminate later.
romkey replies to kaleb777
               or your oversimplifcation of a very complex matter is at fault.
kaleb777 replies to romkey
               Your complication of a very easy to understand situation is annoying. Abortion is not being used for
               the purposes that "pro-choice" people continue to use as excuses for the termination of a child.
               Abortion now outnumbers live births in several countries. There are not many births that could kill
               the mother today, and there are not more children conceived as a result of rape and incest than
               there are live births. People are using abortion as a birth control method. I disagree with that. It IS
               simple. People who try to rationalize the killing of unborn babies for no good reason are complicating
               the matter.
romkey replies to kaleb777
               the matter is clearly not easy to understand or else people wouldn't fight over it as much. All these
               definitions of what constititues life, or murder, or rights, or even "baby" harbor extremely complex
               issues and you confuse the issues by denying that in order to stick to your stance.
ASexyBabe replies to romkey
               yAY!!! ** APPLAUDS **
kaleb777 replies to romkey
               Then we'll have to agree to disagree!
Kristal_Rose replies to kaleb777
               Very poignant. I especially liked the heartbeat phenomenon.
               Alas, I know for a fact that my local hospital almost automatically sends aborted fetusus to donor
               harvesting. Stem cells theoretically prolong the life of the rich. I've noticed TV ads and the local
               billboards subliminally advertise abortion (like the pill OD technique) in these cell farm
               neighborhoods.
kaleb777 replies to Kristal_Rose
               Thank you for offering some approval at what I say. Many times on SC when I ssy I think it's wrong
               to kill unborn babies I am treated as if I have just said it is OK to kill Jews or something.
               Something really disgusting happens in parts of China, where they have taken the rationalization that
               unborn babies are really not people and actually eat the aborted fetuses. I wonder how
               'pro-choice' westerners would regard that. It's only a bunch of cells to them anyway isn't it?
Kristal_Rose replies to kaleb777
               Not to mention the organ harvesting industry of their prison population. I once met someone who
               woke up with a kidney missing when at an institution. My fuzzy recollection is that I agree with most
               of what you say.

Write me a poem.
Kristal_Rose
               Off the top of my head, till the day I am dead,
               ever going, gone beyond, all so awesome, raindrops falling, yod' yod again, and then, dawn alloting,
               all not falling, haloed droning, no more moaning, lift the sea, spirits dreaming, in the tide, live with
               feeling, easy breese, live with ease, so on going, no more snoring, levitate, all we wait, satiate.
               Under towing - so un-growing, wild wind all that song knew along - ride the wind, drifted. Drift
               again. birds on woods, singing dews, midnight morning, all forming. crystal ball.
               Dance, shepards rising, scintillating costume ball. Royal splendour, hidden treasure, books in ships,
               masthead hips, lavendar loving mists amidst all we miss.
Kristal_Rose replies to heyzeus1
               Gee, (mine) kinda reminds me of something INXS would write.
               I just the experience of yours tonight. Section 8 politics and the water being shut off on my
               neighbors apartment (& my kitchen).

If Heaven exists, what would you like to hear God say when you arrive at the
 Pearly Gates? 00.12.11
Kristal_Rose
               "Welcome home". Of course I've heard that in the realm of totally psychic family gatherings, the
               realm of ancestral spirit, a meditation realm with folks like ganesh and garuda hanging out, and I've
               felt at home in some other realms. Lately a strong calling has been gaining momentum, it's been
               described to me as both going home and as getting a ship. Most every realm I've been to started as
               a speculation, and I didn't encounter documentation till after I'd had the experience; this is no
               different; The last 20 of 1300 pages in Alice Baileys 'treatise on cosmic fire' describe
               transcending color and experiencing everything as electricity, alas it doesn't seem to describe what
               happens when you become that electricity. The moment I say ok, let's do it, I get a feeling like
               being plugged into a wall socket and chicken out. I've made some mistakes before like the time I
               was unwittingly worshipping Kali-Ma & the Sri-Yantra and awoke in intense fire, and had to cool off
               in the ocean. Now I am white light (Gevurah) when in the presence of red, so it was worth the
               mistake.
               "I welcome you all" is what I say during group worship; it seems to escalate the group's ecstasy,
               light, or knowledge depending upon the flavor of worship. I got the line from my guru, guru mayi
               chid-vilas-ananda. I respect her a lot. Besides prompting my kundalini awakening, she has a warm
               hearted energy that I can identify when someone so much as hangs her picture in their house. It is a
               sort of romantic magenta-peach or pink-orange energy that wafts and billows or scintillates like a
               hall of disco mirrors.
Twistermime
               HA!
               You assume god is waiting til you're dead to speak to you?
               Man, You need to ask and listen, now.
Kristal_Rose replies to Twistermime
               Think of yourself as in the garden of Eden, naming the animals and always having delights and needs
               in reach, you're welcome to stay there of course and there's no reason to leave, but your key fits
               far more than you can imagine at the moment. You may find that every movie or book on mythology
               you ever read was a preface to the experience. We may be enlightened, but we are not fully
               enlightened. There are things to be gained from discussions with the logos, practice, experience,
               etc.. But there are things you still can't see even if you were to become a nebula tonight. At this
               point I am beginning to consider all of creation including my intellect and perception, though it be in
               mirror unison when I choose such, to be an external experience, as is the void. So far it has all been
               inference.. I create therefore I am.
Kristal_Rose
               Heaven is meant to happen here. Folks, please don't wait till you're dead. Imagine what it would
               look like and make it happen here. What would be elsewhere that is not available to us here and
               now? We don't need to transcend the physical plane but take unattached delight in and stewardship
               of it. People can love each other here. A cloud's not going to help things, after all Sartre's 'No Exit'
               was a hell composed solely of three incompatible people in a lounge room for eternity.
               I've been to heaven on earth. I don't stay because I like to challenge myself and eventually forget
               how I got there.
SueBee replies to Kristal_Rose
               I agree. We need to make the most of the here and now.
               I saw a stage performance of 'No Exit' once that was really bad. Sitting in that audience was hell!
Kristal_Rose replies to SueBee
               Truth always mirrors. When I was supposed to perform it, I tried so hard to be perfect, even
               rehearsing in the original French, but my astoundingly vain partner didn't want to perform except
               whenever I agreed with her that it wasn't working. It was pure hell. and then there was Art by
               Raza. I played the character Alan Alda played (I used to be much like him), and like in the play, my
               partner didn't get it. Performing Nightingale and Blood Moon were like the plays too. I remember
               when I used to make props, if I made rotting flesh hands 'Springs Awakening' (1892 about
               abortion) I picked up sores on my hands. I've become careful over the years what I absorb as life
               stories. I still end up choosing some horrendous ones. You probably know this too.
SueBee replies to Kristal_Rose
               How bizarre, but I can see how that would happen. Twistermime swears that I make things happen
               by wishing they wouldn't. Like, at work, more customers than usual ask to use the bathroom when
               we're running out of toilet paper. That sort of thing.
               Have you ever seen the play 'The Actor's Nightmare'?
Kristal_Rose replies to SueBee
               She's right. Your greatest held fears and confidentally surrendered desires are the things most
               likely to happen. {don't blame me; I didn't write the system}.
               No, haven't seen that play.

skunner7
               "WELCOME TO AMERICANA HEAVEN"
               "YOUR THE FIRST PLUMBER THAT GOT THEIR HEAD STUCK IN THE TOILET AND SAID GOD
               HELP ME"
Kristal_Rose replies to skunner7 (1.1?)
               That happened to me a month ago, almost. I blacked out next to the toilet and got my arms wet.
Julia81
               "welcome dear servant to Heaven. You lived your life in proper way, you did alot of good things in
               your life, you made so many people happy. let me make you happy too, you deserve it!" i would be
               glad if God would say things to me when i die. And i would like to see my gradmom meeting me in
               Heaven....i would tell her how i missed her on earth!
Kristal_Rose replies to Julia81
               God has a whole variety of means by which you could be conversing now. You could perhaps meet
               your grandmother now too, but I don't recommend it. Talking with God I wholeheartedly
               recommend though. Until then, you're just guessing that you're serving God. With 2 bf relationships,
               I'm glad you use your own judgement at least.
Julia81 replies to Kristal_Rose
               well Kristal_Rose i always use my own judgements, i say what i think is right and i honestly dont care
               what people think about it. what about God, i always talk to him through my prayers and i never lose
               faith in him, no matter how hard sometimes my life can be. what about my grandmom i prefer dead
               people to keep in peace and i dont believe that people can communicate with dead or anything like
               that.
Kristal_Rose replies to Julia81 1.04.13
               To my surprise, the next couple nights after I became a minister, I had (lost?)souls visiting me in
               my bedtime meditations. I also have friends (close in heart, distant geographically) that I
               communicate telepathically with.
               God: one way to communicate is yours - pray and see the influence in your life. Other options include
               having an inner voice, reading signs and omens, and what I rely on, speaking through the logos, in
               which all words around you have a higher level of meaning forming a direct 2 party conversation.
               There are at least a couple dozen variants of the logos, many not talking to god, per se. Half the
               time I use my own judgement, the other half god is audible, suggesting things to do or not do re:
               physical, emotional, and spiritual issues. I have trained a few people to hear god. God tells me when
               to check my finances, suggests I work more on one realm or another, clarifies my shortcomings,
               presents immense opportunities for service work, changes the sweetness of my environment, etc.
               etc. etc.
               Usually I have the radio going as a guide. Talking "directly" to God through others takes a state of
               grace I've rarely touched. That's one version of what I call heaven.
Persephone
               'Go away; you belong down there'
               That's what I'm goint to hear.
SueBee replies to Kristal_Rose
               Do you believe in reincarnation?
SueBee replies to Persephone
               But the question here is "What would you like to hear?
Kristal_Rose replies to SueBee
               During 9 hours of tantra I experienced several thousand personalities, I also have ancient
               memories, for instance, when I was three years old, I was designing gas lighting mechanical ignition
               systems for castles. I suspect that that's one of the places I left off at in a prior life.
               So yes. As much as I believe in the existence of history. You've asked this before, and I gave you
               the same answer.
               Speculating on why you ask, heaven is a place to visit, not our ultimate destination.
Kristal_Rose replies to Persephone
               "Goin't to hear". Your own soul wont let you get away with your ego rubbish.
SueBee replies to Kristal_Rose
               Actually I asked because of what you said about being able to contact a relative who is no longer
               alive. I found myself wondering if that would be possible with someone who had passed away a long
               time ago. If they'd been reborn into another life, I wouldn't think you could contact them as the
               person you knew before.
Kristal_Rose replies to SueBee
               I've been heavily considering 'downloading' the scene of my fathers death (for many reasons, esp.
               sentimental), and perhaps some of his memories too (I want to know if I'm still heir to the family
               castle).
               I certainly wouldn't want to disturb him as he is manifest now though.
               I've done a bit of both, but never combined. Communications that transcend the physical are just as
               frequently out of time synch as they are in it. That source which connects all manifestation, also
               connects all time.
               I just realised my meditations weren't false readings (ok, so I did more than consider it). They
               were scenes of Nazi germany, and i just now realised he was a toddler living amongst that.
 

What element (fire, water, air, earth) do you think is most prominent in your
 personality?
Kristal_Rose
               In order: Water, Fire, Earth, Air - but quite a lot of all of them.
Kristal_Rose
               Phoebe: Passion and intensity don't have to indicate anger. I think you have strong water too. then
               air & fire.
               Jkiehart: Fire earth water air
               Twisty: Earth fire water air
               Juliw: Air water fire earth
               Topper: Air earth water fire
               Jemmy: Water earth air fire
               Enheduanna: Fire earth water air
               Micah: Water earth fire air
               Maarten: Earth air water fire
               Teddy: Earth water air fire
               Msgman: Air earth water fire
               A sexy babe: Fire earth air water
               Kate: don't know yet. Earth water fire air
joalis replies to Kristal_Rose
               what do they represent?
juliw replies to Kristal_Rose
               You say I am air water fire earth. What does this mean? I guess the fire means a passion for things
               and strong emotions, but I really don't know what any of this represents.
Kristal_Rose replies to joalis 1.04.13
               Fire: passion, intensity, active transforming or destructive forces, personal energy, creativity.
               Earth: logic, nature, mechanism, weight, solidity, tactile senses, definition, time, growth & decay.
               Water: day-dreaming, flow-of-consciousness, interconnectivity (as oneness), drifting
               indecisiveness, mellowness.
               Air: aloofness, objective detachment from the physical, clarity, penetration of mental forms,
               ambient awareness.
               These elements correspond to planes of consciousness, emotions, world views, body types, cognitive
               structures, behavior styles, etc.

Do you ever have the urge to cry?
     There is no apparent reason for you to cry, you just want to.
Kristal_Rose
               Urge? A few times a day, especially when I'm tired. Usually for little or no reason.
phoebe01
               I usually give into the urge, simply because it's a wonderful reliever of stress. I was crying today
               because I was watching "Breakfast at Tiffany's" and I love the scene where Holly and Paul go
               looking for "Cat".
Kristal_Rose replies to phoebe01
               that one get's to me too.

    phoebe01
    replies to
   Kristal_Rose
               Don't you just love that Audrey Hepburn?
Kristal_Rose replies to phoebe01
               Of course. I think my mom wanted me to model myself after her.
phoebe01 replies to Kristal_Rose
               How so? My mother says that I am one of those "annoying" Audrey Hepburn types and she wishes I
               would put on more weight.
Kristal_Rose replies to phoebe01
               looks. mom's been annoyed at how high strung or grating some of my favorite actresses have been.
               Say for instance 'Phoebe' of 'freinds'.
phoebe01 replies to Kristal_Rose
               Phoebe is the blonde one, right? I think she is kind of airhead-y, and not in a good way.
Kristal_Rose replies to phoebe01
               That's what I like about you; You see there is a good way.
phoebe01 replies to Kristal_Rose
                 :-)
Jemmy replies to Kristal_Rose
               Really? I like Phoebe, she's cool. I don't think she is an airhead. Rachel is more than her.
Hotbabe
               I'm completely exhausted, physically and mentally from all the crying I do.
Kristal_Rose replies to Hotbabe
               I reccommend being to busy with meaningful things to do. My urge to cry disappeared, and I keep
               gathering more energy to accomplish even more.
Hotbabe replies to Kristal_Rose
               Well over the last few months I've kept myself busy by turning into a workaholic, but it obviously
               has done nothing to help.
Kristal_Rose replies to Hotbabe
               Yeah, No. I've made that mistake too. I meant treating yourself, helping others, making significant
               career catapultations. Self-punishment by worldly deprivation ain't where it's at.

Do you believe the Easter story?
Kristal_Rose 1.04.14 (day before Easter)
               Half of these options. Any of us could walk on water or be resurrected with enough faith.
               All of the story is also a metaphor/allegory. It's a pretty high state to be in the water, even higher
               to walk above it. And people of all faiths experience rebirths.
Kristal_Rose
               Well, my easter gift from God was being asked "whatever do I want?" I didn't have an answer or
               really want to. I was entirely dumbfounded actually. I sort of wanted to cry, and not out of joy but
               rather I think because I didn't feel equipped to answer such a question. Things like recreating Eden
               came to mind eventually and then as I got more down to earth personal (& pretty much concluded I
               wouldn't ask for anything in my present state of wisdom), things like being able to teleport. The
               offer alone was enough for me. Things are pretty good already. The wierd thing is that in the face
               of infinite encompassing possibility, all I really wanted to do was tell my friends here and I wasn't
               sure if that was irreverant or not. The thing I ask again and again is that my wisdom and knowledge
               exceed my power. I'm not sure anyone gets that wish granted. Who here is even absolutely sure if
               they should kill a cockroach.

Do you believe in the Easter Bunny?
Jemmy
               Yes, my mommy is the easter bunny.
Kristal_Rose 1.04.14
               The goddess Ostara was renowned for hatching rabbits from eggs to amuse children. The bio-tech
               industry is catching up; they've already made glow-in-the-dark (plankton genes) bunnies.
Kristal_Rose replies to Jemmy
               My girlfreind is the Easter Bunny. Her birthday is monday; she's made paintings of the easter
               bunny, and has a whole series of eggs painted on plates. and her name is Tara, like Ostara.

Handwriting: cursive or printing?

Cont: How do you, as an individual, define "evil"?
Persephone
               Evil is a hidden hatred, agression inside something, towards something. It can be expressed to kept
               inside.
                 I guess my definition sucks.
BrianW
               Evil is a 23 year old man having sex with a 14 year old girl.
Kristal_Rose replies to Persephone 1.04.15
               Agression without hate is evil too. Imagine people (or organisations) who love money or power and
               care nothing for people. They might spread diseases and charge countries for the cure, breed
               plants that can't reproduce and sell annual licensing of the seeds, why they might even limit human
               reproduction and sell the capability back to us, and then there's encouraging abortions for stem cell
               extraction. No hatred, just a lack of compassion.
Persephone replies to Kristal_Rose
               Well I was at least partially right.
               This is 'stolen' from Marriam Webster dictionary:
               Evil (adjective):
               1 a : morally reprehensible : SINFUL, WICKED b : arising from actual or imputed bad character or
               conduct
               2 a archaic : INFERIOR b : causing discomfort or repulsion : OFFENSIVE c : DISAGREEABLE
               3 a : causing harm : PERNICIOUS b : marked by misfortune : UNLUCKY
               Evil (noun):
               1 a : the fact of suffering, misfortune, and wrongdoing b : a cosmic evil force
               2 : something that brings sorrow, distress, or calamity
               I'm not really clear by their definition of evil.
               It's little bit confusing.
Persephone replies to heyzeus1
               Interesting how someone can be sarcastic when it comes to a topic like this.
Kristal_Rose replies to Persephone
               It's something you constanly need to figure out for yourself. It will change depending upon what
               you're capable of handling.
 

Have you ever been harassed at work?
Kristal_Rose
               I once had harrasment charges filed against me. The gal wouldn't let me talk to her to make an
               apology and clarify things, so I kept writing letters to achieve that. She reported me to the HR
               dept and I had to maintain a non communication distance from her. That was nearly a lifetime ago.
Kristal_Rose 1.04.19
               I had a boss for ten years when restored Citroëns which always used to say (and my coworkers
               would imitate him afterwards) "what were you thinking?". His face would get as red as a beet and
               you could watch it happen over a few seconds. He couldn't get that I could be the top student in my
               calculus and programming classes, yet not be able to add or subtract two measurements (brake
               discs) in my head. I think my favorite nightmare was when I repaired some burnt wiring. Somehow
               the the wires got reversed so whenever the engine got too warm the electric fan would kick in and
               (being reversed) counter the efforts of the mechanical fan. "an over-heat enhancer".

Share a hallucination?
Julia81
               once my family went to Canada and i was by myself in the house. So it was about 11 o'clock at night, i
               was watching TV and i was falling asleep, though i wasnt completly asleep.And suddenly, i felt that
               some
               one or something cold touched me.i was shocked cause i never had anything like this in my life, plus i
               dont drugs, my mental state is normal.It was really scarry.
Kristal_Rose replies to Julia81 1.04.19
               I've seen ghosts before. I was going to pick through some old farm equipment and I was tapped on
               the shoulder (it felt electric) by someone I could feel in my minds eye looked like an old cross
               between Ronald Reagan, L'il Abner, and Lurch. Also at that same site, I visually saw three ghosts
               appear. They looked like silhouettes of magnifying glass, sort of like anti-matter (clear). At home
               I've seen 'black hole silhoettes' peering ino my window. I had a few months of haunting here too, by
               yet a third form of ghost, in this case, that of a living ex-friend whom I used to love and share
               telepathic conversations and visions with.
Julia81 replies to Kristal_Rose
             i'll tell you what, i dont really like this "ghost thing" at all and i dont get why those ghosts
             like to scarry people. i have heard alot of stories about ghosts from people. if we dont
             bother them, why do they bother us?
Kristal_Rose 1.04.20
             I have a few theories. 1) They come to those intrigued and willing to believe in them. 2)
             The type of character who would become a ghost had a bad disposition in the first place
             and still has things to work out here on earth. 3) It's God's way of forcing you to learn
             that you are not susceptable to them and find greater invincibility through identification
             with the ultimate.
             Places and objects can hold an imprint of their former owners. For instance I once
             touched the front bumper of a car (Citroëns had optional hand cranks till 1972) and got
             real bad energy, to later find out that it's owner had broken his elbow trying to crank
             start it a week earlier. That ghost I mentioned showed up while I was digging out a turn of
             the century electric motor. I practically have an entire museum at home full of objects I
             use to meditate on narrative energies.
 

What's your real name?
Kristal_Rose replies to
Persephone
              WÉLL, í cåñ prìÑt sö mân¥ chàräcters, but I just hadn't noticed Alt-225 (ß) before.
              Thanks
Persephone replies to Kristal_Rose
              You're welcome.
Kristal_Rose replies to Persephone
              You don't know how to get an upper case ë do you?
Persephone replies to Kristal_Rose
              No. I don't really know how to get many charaters; just the one I need one for my name,
              and some that are used in foreign words in English.
Kristal_Rose replies to Persephone 1.04.20
              I had a weird dialogue with my computer through the spell check while emailing myself
              sort of (addressed to artificial intelligence). I asked it for ideas on what it wanted to be
              called.Options it presented were Uzi  Zip, Zap, Zoë (with a capital ë) and Ezra (the
              highest angelic scribe). As far as I can tell, it's not even an available ascii character
              from the keyboard, though i can copy it. I can dozens of other special characters though.
              I was wondering how my computer became so sentient, for instance my website makes
              changes I want without my physical intervention, for awhile I was using a voice dictation
              software that appending my journal entries with things I forgot to mention (a bit
              scrambled though). I think the truth of the matter, in spite of all my paranoia about
              these events, is that I myself am Ezra.
 

QUICK! without cheating, how many continents are there?
Kristal_Rose
             7 - Europe, Asia, N. America, S. America, Australia, Africa, Antarctica.
Kristal_Rose
             Oh, and Atlantis
heyzeus1 replies to Kristal_Rose
             and lemuria
heyzeus1 replies to Kristal_Rose
             there are 20 consonants
Kristal_Rose replies to heyzeus1
             Judgement.
             22 letters including Ayin & Aleph.
             6 Owls?
             Ah, yes, they died of fusion caused volcanic activity like the chaldean vimana wars didn't
             they. Like we might too; Ever notice the synchronicity between earthquakes, green light
             cloud spottings, and HARP tests. At least the water (battery) supply and radiation belts
             are far from mars dead. I know only heresay of Lemuria. Do you have any info or
             resources? I haven't meditated beyond our age yet. Well, I have been to some other
             terrestrial realms, maybe I have and just didn't know it.
heyzeus1 replies to Kristal_Rose
             I don't remember where i learned about mu, but something to check out would be Phylos'
             dweller on two planets (if you can still find that book!). interesting you mentioned harp
             (haarp?), i found a website a while back to view the harp readings for any given date. this
             particular site claimed high harp frequencies coincided with the various major school
             shootings, and i checked, and they do...
             but get your hands on that phylos book, you would maybe like it.
Kristal_Rose replies to heyzeus1
             The streets of LA,CA were littered with dead birds when they had the big demo here
             back in Oct 99. It could just be mirror synchronicity, and not newtonian physics, either
             way both results were unfortunate.
             BTW, Where did you find records of energy readings?
 smurf 
             Dunno. I don't understand what the different elements reflect.

Kristal_Rose replies to smurf 1.4.28
Did you read my description of them?
I would call you Air, Water, Earth, Fire (AWEF)(fairly passive). Jesus was probably Air Fire Water
Earth (pretty intense, of course by some definitions he had them all maxed out). 
Jesus - Air (AFWE)(transcend) Heaven
Moses - Fire (FEWA) (activate-purge-temper) Arc
Noah - Water (WEAF)(cleanse-transmigrate-flow-harmonize) Ark
Adam - Earth (EWAF)(build) Eden
Mohammed - (AWFH)
Solomon - (EFWA)
Mary - (WEFA)
Eve - (WEAF)
Lilith - (EFWA) She was practically dark solid anti-matter like Kali and a few others I've met in
meditations. Fortunately for you, you won't have to ever worry about meeting such beings.
I can do the angels for you too if you want.
None of these qualities are good or bad in themself, just as the earthly equivalents all have their
place.