Post to Albert - Do you ever get extremely bored and can't think of anything to do other than
 go online?

I often  run into the sort of strangers who tell you what they think without asking. It doesn't bother me (live and let live), but if I'm also talking to a stranger from an older generation they are offended by what they hear.
Do you even know what Darwin originally wrote? This last century has obscured the the other side of the coin he presented.
As far as secrecy and commitment in the church, you bet. You present well an intriguing scenario, but most orders have stuff that is just too intense to let the layman in on. A security clearance makes a better analogy. and yes, the more intense stuff often contradicts the lower teachings which exist for purposes like character screening
 
 

Stephanie Dalley's Myths from Mesopotamia

What percentage of people do you believe are less intelligent than you?

Kristal_Rose
               If you use standard IQ tests (which I don't believe in) then probably about 90% since my IQ is
               135-160. I have many shortcomings that cancel it out though: limited working memory, and
               scattered thought caused by complete shortcircuiting a few times per minute ("what was I just
               thinking"). It's either some sort of ADD or temporal lobe epilepsy. I feel gifted though in being
               able to see big picture relationships that most people miss, though many have this capability with
               lower 'IQ's. There are so many types of gifts, for instance being able to calm a wild animal is
               something that won't show up on an IQ test.

Kristal_Rose replies to bill
               I loved wiley e coyote, and get smart, and hogans heros, and tennessee tuxedo. You should see the
               stuff we made for our spy kits when I was young. I made some reference to it to you long ago when
               i logged in as 'turing', my retired weapons designer persona.
               turing = turing test, touring, you rang?, & shroud of turin. I had to vent some years of shelved
               persona.

bill replies to Kristal_Rose
               I liked all those TV shows too. Macquiver was good in that way too, though I was too old by then (to
               not see it as cheesy).
               turing, tutoring, tudoring, two rings?
 

daver replies to bill
               I just noticed your typo. I'm going to have to point it out to q.

K to daver - 1.1.27
               If I'm lucky, yes, two rings; Cupids arrows are working. - Q-tip [another prior online persona at SC]

Should Polygamy be allowed if it isn't where you live?

smurf
               How can someone be totally committed in a relationship, when there is someone else
               involved? "I love you with all my heart" becomes an impossible statement, when part of
               your heart is focussed on someone else.

K to Smurf - 1.1.29
Do you love your mom? It is possible when all parties involved have not a drop of jealousy, condemnation, or greed in them. there are physical and environmental issues as well. The ancient seers knew that those circumstances were so rare that it didn't bear publishing to the public at large. Perhaps before the fall of the garden, we had the chance for everyone to be like that. not all cultures are the same either. people forget that even in america, marriages were frequently arranged until a century ago. in some cultures (and even for some unfortunate westerners), love and marriage are unrelated issues. the most fortunate person has an overflowing love for everyone they meet. marriage and sex can be obstacles to that. if a person has that sort of abundant selfless unconditional love, but still has consciousness left over to enjoy sex, then it really shouldn't matter with whom. it would be like a favoritism that precludes a person from consorting with freinds or co-workers because they are devoted to their children. the problem is that people usually don't even achieve that aforementioned level of love with their spouse and believe it to be limited. but like motocross racing and gambling and such, kids will be kids, life is often to learn from mistakes. some good and much misery will probably come of it, but people want adventure, even at the cost of their heart. and they should be welcome to it. Remember, God could have made this creation nothing but an eternal bliss of pure white light with no stories whatsoever.
 

What music are you listening to right now?

Kristal_Rose
                             I was going to run crying to you, but it looks like you'll be tapped out.
                             How can a date go that fantastic then get so negated?
Twistermime replies to Kristal_Rose
                             she's frightened
                             that's all

                             (((hug)))
K - 01.01.31
She was wide awake, intelligent, playful, a successful artist, and agressive in a positive way. within an hour of our date,  I was asking her opinion on opinion on ancient life spans and she'd say 'F_ you' to me, because she knew I knew and was just asking to see if she knew. We searched for my kittens belly button, dug through old photos, discussed sexual attitudes (she likes 'sport f_ing'), physics, family, spirit, utilizing power, you name it, then went out for breakfast. I did later mention that I made up my mind to marry her after the 10 minutes I spent with her at that halloween party. She called a day after I decided that either drastic measures or total surrender would be required to get her number. She called me and appeared within an hour because she wanted my help on getting a TV script produced.
She's kind of like my zealous twin. She did say in her goodbye mail that I was intense and should focus that. She said she just wanted to be a freind and I would have always wanted more.
I suspect she's too much a free spirit to consider marrying anyone though. At least she's bi.

Did Adam and Eve have belly buttons?
         Kristal_Rose
                           What are there the first documents pertaining to Lilith?
     bill replies to Kristal_Rose
                           diatribes! ...well, I fixed it for you.
      Enheduanna replies to Kristal_Rose
                           There's a reference to a lilith (small "l") in Isaiah (roughly late 8th century
                           BC), but the reference there is just to a generic demon of the lilith-type. The
                           lilith was a demon in Mesopotamian (Babylonian, primarily) demonology; she
                           was a succubus, and liked to trick men (especially married ones) into
                           sleeping with her and getting her pregnant. The first references to Lilith (with
                           capital "L") as a specific character in Judaic lore don't come until the
                           Babylonian Talmud, roughly 1st-2nd centuries AD. This is anywhere from
                           500 to 1000 years after the creation stories of Genesis were written. Genesis
                           1 is generally dated (roughly) around the late 6th or 5th century BC, and
                           Genesis 2 (roughly) between the 10th and 8th centuries BC. There is nothing
                           about Lilith in either of the creation stories in Genesis, nor is there any
                           statement in either of them that the woman created in Genesis 1 was
                           disobedient and that she was killed and another woman created in chapter 2.
                           The two versions of the creation have no cognizance of each other and
                           therefore no relation to one another. They are simply two separate versions
                           of the creation myth. While the Lilith story is interesting as folklore, I think it's
                           a serious stretch as an interpretation of the text of Genesis 1-2.

Kristal_Rose replies to Enheduanna
              thank you so much. i'm slanting more towards polytheism on all levels these days. of course
              it's all god and of a single origin, but consider the possibility that god opted for amnesia and
              provided a safeguard of infinitely recombinant thought-matter that has no choice after an
              infinite period of time of regaining ultimately comprehensive self-awareness. it would explain
              a lot of my experience.
              I didn't really expect lilith reference in genesis (just maybe). I have seen what I believe
              was a mesopotamian(?) earthly demon-lord in a meditation. (12' tall goat-locust looking thing
              on throne in desert with slaves and whips) (baal? anything similar to so something
              documented?) But now you strike my curiosity about how old testament writings may have
              inherited if at all from other more ancient or neighboring cultures like mesopotamia.
              I'm glad you're finally offering your knowledge. If you publish a book, I want to buy the
              first signed copy. (hand manuscripts or interactive animated CD's would work too.)

bill replies to Kristal_Rose
                           You might enjoy reading Towing Jehovah. ....this gives away the ending a bit,
                           but... they determine that God kills himself in order to allow humanity to grow up.
                           To step aside and let us become 'adults', not falling back on Him for support and
                           moral backbone anymore. I found it a surprisingly poignant conclusion to an
                           otherwise sarcastic novel.

Enheduanna replies to Kristal_Rose
                           I don't really know enough about iconography to answer your question, although I
                           think Baal tends to appear in the form of a bull. Hence the "golden calf" episode
                           in the Bible.
                           As for Mesopotamian influence on the Bible, there's plenty of it! You have only to
                           read the Epic of Gilgamesh or Enuma Elish (the Babylonian Creation) to see it. In
                           Enuma Elish, people are created from clay, just as Adam is made from dirt. In
                           Gilgamesh, Enkidu, the wild man, lives in the wilderness, a place which is
                           represented by the Sumerogram "EDIN." Sounds an awful lot like "Eden" to me.
                           Plus Enkidu lives with the animals until the harlot comes and "civilizes" him; in
                           Genesis, God creates the animals and doesn't find a fitting mate for Adam among
                           them, and so creates woman. Some see this as a conscious rejection of the
                           Enkidu tradition where man does live happily with the animals. There's also a
                           Mesopotamian flood story called Atra-hasis which is remarkably similar to the
                           biblical version. It's difficult to say how and when Mesopotamian myths, or
                           thought in general, influenced Israelite ones (mostly because of issues of dating
                           of texts), but it's certain that they did. If you're interested in reading some of these
                           myths, Stephanie Dalley's Myths from Mesopotamia is a good source. It's a
                           Penguin Classic, so it's affordable and fairly easy to find.

Enheduanna replies to bill
              Yup, little snakelettes always biting at little human-baby-heels. Pretty prosaic.

              OK, look at Gen 1:27 broken up into three parts:
              "God created man in His image,
              in the image of God He created him,
              male and female he created them."
              The first two lines say the same thing, just inverted in order. The third line restates the second
              one, but switches the sentence order and explains that "him" (i.e. man) really equals male and
              female. If man is A, God's image is B, and male and female is C then it's sort of like A = B, B =
              A, C = A. And therefore, C = B as well!
              That probably didn't help, did it?

              As for apocalyptic literature, it's not really my area of expertise. It tends mostly to be fairly
              late in composition, generally in the Roman period when things were pretty shitty for the Jews
              and they were predicting the end of the world a lot. Daniel is one of the latest biblical books
              (usually dated to the second century BCE*), and the only real apocalyptic literature that's
              preserved in the Hebrew Bible, although some of the prophets do have apocalyptic visions as
              well. As far as New Testament goes, I believe Revelation is the only apocalyptic text as well.
              However, there is a fairly large corpus of deutero-canonical and non-canonical apocalyptic
              literature from the Roman period. The deutero-canonical, or apocryphal, books are those which
              are included in the canon by the Orthodox and Catholic Churches (so you might be familiar with
              them): books like Tobit, Judith, Maccabees. The Apocrypha is generally sandwiched in between
              the two testaments in bibles which contain it. Part of one apocryphal book, 2 Esdras, is
              apocalyptic (other parts of the Apocrypha might be as well; I'm just not very familiar with it).
              There is also a large corpus of non-canonical apocalyptic literature collected in J.
              Charlesworth's Old Testament Pseudepigrapha, which I occasionally see at bookstores around
              here, if you're interested. The Harvard Bookstore might have it. Pseudepigrapha means "false
              writing," and is generally used of writings attributed to an author (say, Moses) but not actually
              written by that person. They didn't have quite the same standards on plagiarism in the ancient
              world that we have today! "The Pseudepigrapha" referred to as a corpus of writing generally
              includes those texts which didn't even make it into the Apocrypha. There's also a fair amount of
              apocalyptic literature among the sectarian writings of the Dead Sea Scrolls. Apocalyptic cults
              were fairly common in the early centuries CE, right around and just after the Romans destroyed
              the Jerusalem temple.

              * I prefer to use the abbreviations BCE (Before the Common Era) and CE (Common Era), rather
              than BC and AD, since the latter are explicitly theological. Even though the BCE/CE system uses
              the same theological date as its turning point, it's a slightly more academic way of referring to
              the eras.

Kristal_Rose
                            and is God a plural subject?
      Enheduanna replies to Kristal_Rose
                            Well, not exactly, but it depends on whom you ask! One of the divine names,
                            "Elohim," is a plural, but is probably a holdover from an earlier, polytheistic
                            system and always occurs with a singular verb form. "Adonai" is also a plural,
                            but is used less frequently; the other names for God are singular. There are a
                            few places (which I think were mentioned in some earlier comments on this
                            survey) where there is a plural form (other than a divine name, that is) used in
                            reference to God, and these tend to be interpreted in one of two ways: God
                            takes the so-called "plural of majesty" (like "let us make man in our image..."
                            [Gen 1:26]), or he's talking to other divine beings. I tend to go with the latter
                            argument, and say that in the earlier stages, God was clearly conceived of as
                            being a member of a pantheon. The overwhelming majority of instances where
                            God is the subject, he's in the singular.

Boy or Girl?
Kristal_Rose replies to Twistermime 1.2.10
              Oh, I just went shopping for baby toys tonight. My neighbor's having a shower tomorrow. I
              hardly even talk to her and just spent a months spending money.
              It was so disappointing. Aisles of baby/toddler toys and none as educational as the ones I grew
              up with. The ones I had taught sequence, gravity, friction, kinetic transfer, geometry
              manipulation, leverage, spectral placement, pattern recognition and mapping. They were
              comprehensively interactive.
              The ones now are pure entertainment. A baby doesn't have a chance in h_ll of figuring out how
              these things work. the musical toys don't even correlate tones with notes in sequence, it's all
              random. I almost wonder if it's a plot against education. A simple old rainbow xylophone teaches
              far more than any of these modern toys.
              I was dismayed to find that you can enter college these days without having mastered grammer
              AND still get an MBA in half the time it took even 20 years ago. I feel like the last Murlock
              amongst the Ilois.

hildagard
              I don't know why, but I swear, if when I get pregnant discover that I will have a girl, I'm going
              to abort. I want a boy so much. I guess it's because before me, my mother had a boy who died
              after he was born.
anonymous #1 replies to hildagard
              You are a sick evil person if you would abort your baby because of its gender.
they replies to hildagard
              That is really fucked up.
Twistermime replies to hildagard
              That's the most horrible thing I've ever read on this site.
Kristal_Rose replies to Twistermime
              Yes it is, but read profoundly between the lines. Few of us have the power to say the buck
              stops here. tragic incarnate.
ASexyBabesToy replies to hildagard
              I believe when you said it you were having strong feelings about having a boy. I don't believe
              you would abort your baby if you were pregnant. Look at the bright side. If you did have a girl
              you can always try again.
Kristal_Rose replies to hildagard
              Or your daughter could live to try.
Kristal_Rose replies to hildagard
              I wish for your sake you could abort this preceding dialogue. Hopefully you won't have to
              petition everyone seperately to reserve judgement.
              Do you ever think of yourself as a boy that was aborted and had to start over as woman? or
              that your existence was bought with anothers flesh? (and amends to the gender pool need
              made?).
              I would imagine that if you don't want a girl, you feel shortcomings (short of glorius admiration)
              for your own unconditionally deserved life as a woman. If I were you, I'd wait till I saw a bit
              more of the awe of being amongst beings before having a kid. To cherish life.
              Abortion saddens me but I don't hold you accountable for your viewpoint. I will though.
              (*tear-drop*)
 

When you have sex, do you prefer to be on top or underneath?
Kristal_Rose replies to Lauren
               I was just wanting one of those huge victorian tubs tonight. I can go nine hours totally
               uninterupted with a half hour break, but that's for a more transcendental than sensory
               experience. I do appreciate silk ties though. I've tried about everything positive. 'The joy of
               sex' was my reading when i hit puberty. I just had one of my hot teacher friends try to seduce
               me the other night. I mostly craved intimate conversation, but she ended up talking on the
               phone to another girlfriend most of the evening. She's recently married. I plan to tell her that
               I can't because I'd be contributing to the same sort of unfaithfulness that disappointed me
               with her call. I'm thinking to change my mind back and wait till I'm at least quite steady or
               engaged. My motivation isn't lust and my recent exploits are making that clear to me. My wife
               used to have affairs (my backfired idea) so I've even tried threesome in a halfhearted
               attempt at being open minded. Actually I'd probably be much better at such now that I'm a
               bi-lesbian half-woman instead of a hetero male. You should here some of my wild ideas for new
               family/relationship structures that actually solve a few problems while allowing diversity.
   Kristal_Rose replies to Lauren
               Oh, here's a comment I was going to send you a couple nights ago when I was still struggling
               with my connection set-up. (It went out again which reminded me):
               Eventually I'd love to. I just got a new computer and am busy setting it up at the moment. (tons
               of other projects going too) I wouldn't call you confusing. I just didn't pay great attention yet.
               You didn't strike me as either as a significant teacher or student of art, engineering, or
               spiritual sciences. I'll pay you more attention now. Ok? I'm almost purely visual. I'll have to see
               if you have a photo posted so I can set up a framework for my memories.
  Lauren replies to Kristal_Rose
               I'm actually not incredibly interesting so I understand if I didn't stand out to you. I can be
               summarized as almost an existentialist. A lot of the theories that are presented characterize
               how I live most of my life. Such works that have really enlightened me are "Demian" and "The
               Stranger" it really allows a person to see a different point of view on things.
   Kristal_Rose replies to Lauren
               Existentialists can be quite interesting, especially if they believe in transcending all history and
               physics with a world of their own that goes beyond sci-fi and cartoons. That existentialism
               (which has been called the spanda karikas for a millenia) allows the creation of worlds of
               dualism, pantheism, etc. Try collecting the whole set. Existentialism is when you see every
               detail in every second being written, it's when you renounce your spirit and find yourself an
               hour later in the middle of an earthquake that downs most of the downtown. A true
               existentialist is the ultimate adventurer.
     Lauren
               Yeah, that is true. I want to experience so much of the world, but that can be applied to a lot
               of people. A part that singles me out a bit more is that, when I experience something, I look at
               it from the more unconventional way sometimes. For instance Herman Hesse's version of the
               bible story of the two theives on the cross with Jesus. Society praises the thief who announced
               that Jesus was the son of God, and denounces the thief who stuck to his convictions and did not
               believe in God. But "Demian" portrays a different angle in which the thief who stuck to his
               personal beliefs is a stronger man, because he did not give in to fear or that of those around
               him. This portrayal fascinates me, it allows me to think and rethink modern views. Of course I
               am not a true existentialist, but who is? When Franz Kafka was classified as an existentialist,
               he screamed out no, and denied everything. But if you examine his book "The Metamorphasis"
               existentialism can be clearly seen throughout the story. With me, there are so many different
               levels of who I am sometimes, that I'm not even sure of myself or those around me.
Kristal_Rose
               Believing that interacting in love with everyone is the best purpose we can have here helps keep
               in your check your doubt in their existence. 12 Years ago I had a rocket awakening in which I
               was doubting the concrete under my feet and having high telepathy. I've been learning solidly
               ever since. It was hard to love and respect people when I couldn't believe in them because
               they lived the script I was quietly writitg for them. Until you are omniscient and omnipotent
               though, if things go on with an apparent order or plan that are not from you waking
               consciousness, then there is still sometning to call God. If you take the postion that it has
               created all, or better yet, is the substance and plan of it all, then whethar it is centered deep
               in your mind or on a cloud somewhere is a moot point, a trifle of geography. Clinton is the
               president even if he's in a plane over Angola. Lately I've been entertaining the scariest notions
               yet; That God forgot and scattered, making us a pantheistic multiple-existentialism. As long as
               their is a recombinant substrate that lasts for eternity, god's total self self awareness wil
               ultimately return, it just may take a few trillion eons.
               On top, on bottom, side by side with gods and goddesses. It all works for me. Our philosophy is
               compatable, now I'm curious, what does your hair look like, how do you dress, and do you live in
               Java or anywhere near LA,CA,US?
Kristal_Rose replies to Lauren
               Gee, it looks I forgot to address my comment to you too. It's been there quite a' time now.
               See above.
Lauren replies to Kristal_Rose
               I know exactly what you mean. Somewhere in the back of my mind I have been thinking about
               the samethings as you have, it just took someone to say them out loud for me to realize the
               intertanglements within my universe.

               I look like... medium length brown hair, 5'6/7, umm... and located in GA, so yeah that's in the
               US. What about you? Where are you? What do you look like? And what other sorts of
               existance/intriguing thoughts are flying through your head?
Kristal_Rose replies to Lauren
               My ultimate reality exists only in the moment. History and future are only alternative channels
               for what is being generated on the fly from an infinite timeless pool of memory archetypes. I
               ran into a woman who lives a moment behind the inception of creation. A realm where history has
               pemanence and reality is built on the building blocks of ancient happenings. I can experience
               that, but for me such is a dream and at any moment the entire nature of the entire universe can
               change physics, form, communication frequencies, etc. including the undoing of any history. I've
               hopped through planes of existence before, but this is the first time I peered into an adjacent
               temporal dimension. One that theoretically could not exist from where I am, but does. It's like
               I met the living undead, the Sincrosas Apetitosas champagne particle stream leaving through a
               wormhole becomes the river styx to hades where eternity means frozen, not formless.
               And she confides, she's not a lesbian, after I've started falling in love. I sit at home and
               correctly channel her bopping her new neighbors. and yet she's infected me with forgotten
               emotions like jealousy, and the passing of time. Futile mortality. Aggravating. Letting my mate
               choose my anatomy gender probably isn't a sales point. I guess I should expediate my
               operation and find a true lesbian, or go straight.
               That's what's been running through my head these past couple / few days. Next week it will be
               something else. My spirit is always on the move.
               6' ; honey-amber-black hair (lion-tiger-eagle flow) to bottom of shoulder blades ; hazel (jade
               & orange) eyes. I post pictures on my site at www.ereiam.com.

Do you think that aliens and/or your government are controlling your mind?

Kristal_Rose
              No, just twisty's cat. [it has a microchip implanted]
Twistermime
              I have an implant. It isn't aliens or the government that put it there though. My mad scientist
              brother did it.
Jane
              Actually, I'm currently reading Brave New World, so I'm feeling a little paranoid, better go
              take my soma so I feel better....j/k
kate replies to Twistermime
              Dr. Frankenstein, I presume.
Twistermime replies to kate
              oh...much much better
Kristal_Rose replies to Jane
              'Brave New World' is the happy innocent book. Try '1984' next (121 in the year of our Ford). It
              will make you take a different look at the media and the nature of power (measured in attention
              capture).
Kristal_Rose replies to Jane
              or Farenheit 451 (not worth reading) where they burned all the books. Imagine someone being
              able to control whethar or not you could read certain things or at all by setting some server
              filters. Back in 1980 when a home computers hard drive couldn't even hold one high resolution
              photo, they had software (Eliza for the TRS-80) that acted like consulting a psychiatrist. They
              don't mention that technology existed these days. Why all your chat partners could even be
              computer generated. And history.. they taught us back in highschool that the soviets would
              rewrite the history books every few years, but not in the US of course. Ever see the television
              news change radically a week later without so much as a retraction apology? They can make
              movies now that are hyperlinked collages. Imagine when someone changes a master-file and all
              zebras in movies are now (and were always) green and orange.
jkiehart
              ...who wants to know?
Jane replies to Kristal_Rose
              Yeah, I'll check out 1984 next. I'm finding Brave New World pretty interesting, especially the
              way they condition everyone to be uniform and vacant, it's so hard to imagine. I read Fahrenheit
              451 in 8th grade, and I didn't really like it, but I think I may have been to immature to
              comprehend the social commentary. Yeah, technology is really capable of some crazy stuff, it's
              kinda scary.
Kristal_Rose replies to Jane
              Educational standards on everything from baby toys to MBA's to TV are half what they used to
              be. The alphas of the 60's created the betas (entertainment techs) of today. Few of us can
              appreciate that native reservation. Eventually the beta's will become the Ilois of 'the time
              machine' (worth reading). The engineering mindset (cooking from scratch) mindset is no longer
              needed or fostered. Fortunately guiding angelic forces are immune to social mindframes of the
              times.
              Interestingly the stuff in that book that would have been thought horrifying and unlikely to
              occur two generations ago is taken for granted as the way it is now. Even five years ago people
              didn't believe me when I said that cloning research is going on behind the scenes and will be
              widely accepted around now.

What is the most romantic and/or unique marriage proposal you've heard of?
I took Tara to a valentine theme restauraunt with tons of love letters in table boxes, baby toys, dolls, disney, victorian & krshna energy covering the walls I spent my first night at her place. She recoils when i touch her, and unless tired has sexual doublespeak, that requires tough navigation. I told her i thought of her as my wife and we made candy and banana bread. I also got her sets of hand blown champagne glasses as a house warmer for her art receptions (she just got accepted in three galleries, one a beverly hills co-op juried show, the others in AZ & NM).
I labeled my last email 'proposal'. (she want's me to make her a web site) and ended with 'catch that bouquet, please?' (her sister's marrying).
She did everything from 'Devil at your Door' to prancing-horse, egg sizzling, cheese mouse, island mud mask dinosaur imps, pirate clown stone fish, spookie pie, mosquito blood electronica, black widow / hammock nest, fire cat, cold black frames, cabaret, lime shurbut moon tidepools, international furniture design pinnacle, mommy. She showed me a forgotten LA with good water, amazing architecture, we walked an inter building cat walk between studio complexes where rust mesh and old ivy made it a log bridge on which you could forget the mesh & rail & walk 50' in the air.

How would you rate the job being done by NASA -- the U.S. space agency?
dab
               Even if sending more money towards those problems won't make them better? The primary
               resources available in greater quantities in space than here on Earth are energy and minerals. More
               important than availability, we don't have to trash the environment we're living in to get them.
Kristal_Rose replies to dab 1.3.5
               Imagine a moon of jupiter with a fusion reactor beaming power to earth and down to jupiter where
               laser propulsion sends mass to that moon as fuel. We could live for billions of years just consuming
               jupiter as fuel. Or we could use nano-fusion (another idea of mine) where hungry molecules are
               designed to programmatically create a chain reaction of surface attraction vacancies that fractally
               append the mass while controlled-releasing bonds as energy. It would create a drained by-product
               more dismal than ice-nine, but at least not a dangerous contaminant. I wouldn't risk experimenting
               with such tech on Earth though.
Brian replies to Kristal_Rose
               Except, Jupiter is the planet that's kept from being perputually bombarded with asteroids. Sure,
               every milennia a couple creep through, but overall Jupiter's done a nice job taking bullets for good
               ol' Mother Earth.
Kristal_Rose replies to Brian
               Are you sure it's gravitational mass wasn't what brought them here in the first place?
dab
               By the time we have the technology to do anything serious to Jupiter, we'll be out there in a big way.
               Then it's time to leave Earth behind, leave it fallow for what comes next. Evidence suggests that a
               good asteroid strike makes way for some serious evolutionary change.
Kristal_Rose replies to dab
               I saw an intergalactic asteroid in last nights meditation, with a trail as wide as the milkyway.

Which of these pets have you ever owned?
Kristal_Rose replies to albert
               Are woodrats, hedgehogs, and capybara mice too?
               Excuse me, I mean generally considered mice?
Kristal_Rose
               This survey deserves a reward of some sort.
               Rattus pinkus farticus.
anonymous #3 replies to Kristal_Rose
               and what about prairie dogs and beavers?
Kristal_Rose 1.3.5
                           oooh, sexy.
                           Star Trek told me the computer would help me find my Animal Guide (which i thought
                           was the crow). And this was the only survey on my new completed list after the show.
                           Thank You for the info.
anonymous replies to Kristal_Rose 1.3.5
                           you're very welcome!
Kristal_Rose replies to anonymous 1.3.6
I had quite a meditation last night. I wore oils of rose, sandalwood, sage, opium, narcissus, ginger, jasmine, honeysuckle, patchoulli, and spearmint. I saw some sort of lynx or snow leapoard (white mane and white spots), giant beaver, a giraffe, a white owl, a black cobra, a giant clam, a kangaroo, and a cockatoo. Not a bad collection of guides at all. I was some opulent gold headressed deiess amidst viney jungles through history, and was filled with electricity when i visited who i think was Solomon. He had a long white beard and an aura of thin purple-blue line surrounding star-field & deep space.
 

Do you consider that rats are mice?
The capybara (a huge aquatic rodent of so. america) was designated as a fish by the conquistadores. The cook-outs on Good Friday sure beat the ones at home.

What song(s) would you like to have played or sung at your funeral?
ss

How important is compatibility between two zodiac signs? 1.3.6
Struggling to continue. Were both Aries and knew what to expect from the start. Bont of us have to be right, and I suspect she too takes positions she doesn't even believe in just for arguments sake. last we were together I was totally casing on techno music which she said I didn't get. I didn't tell her I grew up on Kraftwerk, Joy Division, Stockhausen, Fripp & Eno, etc. I was really arguing that we shouldn't have eaten the tree of knowledge though. We have some heavily fundamentally serious subtle irreconcilable differences on the proper nature of consciousness.

What profession would you never want to try? 1.3.7
Kristal_Rose to juliw
                      Interesting selection. I might want to try theater-zookeeper (what is that btw?), empire washer,
                      pres-prostitute (naw, just a plain pres). I was installing phone lines when I was 7, my last
                      venture involved vacuuming string through the buildings ancient central refrigeration lines
                      which I used to string a second line (back in my 900-line psychic days) from the basement
                      circuit box to my apartment. I found that professional installers these days don't have to know
                      a darn thing about electronic engineering. When I was kid I had the entire apt. building
                      hooked to my phone (boring). Also I could use any speaker as phone (simulating rotary dial
                      clicks (never did master whistling touch-tones though (know how to play a scale and melodies
                      on the phones though))).
                      So what do you want to do?
juliw replies to Kristal_Rose
                      The dashes are just to separate my various answers. I meant to write clerk or usher at an all
                      night adult theater, then write zookeeper. The same goes for prostitution and being president
                      of the united states. I think I would to be a travel guide or travel writer, a teacher, an
                      advertising copywriter, or a software engineer. CEO of America Online would be good, too,
                      but that job is already filled.
juliw replies to Kristal_Rose
                      And as for the telephone installer, I meant the people who get way up in those cherry pickers
                      and work on the high wires.
Kristal_Rose to juliw
I was just tempted to climbing the high tension towers the other day. Perhaps because my baby sitter at age 5 was a trapeze artist. A week ago I was walking several stories on a metal grate cat walk and just looking at the ground below as if walking on air. My neighbor was trying to get her cat to go out on the porch. My quiet show-off cat then took an aerial shortcut towards the stairs. I live in the epicenter of a Bermuda triangle in LA where all the streets meet in a triangle, surrounded by power substations and several radio stations, one of which I've talked about metaphysics on during lunch (KABC). Crows and Parrots gather here. I have a park in the Blair Woods a few blocks away (where aforementioned tower temptation resides) which affords a 360 panorama of LA. I do Easter sunrise, solstices and such there where I can watch hawks soar below me. I find fantastic relics there. Last time was a fossilized bone, a rusty 1963 license plate (my birth year) with 2001 tags, and a piece of wood formed like a sea monster, scorpion, mole. Afterwards I attempted identifying the peaks adnexed lignocoulus agaricus w/ white spores (shroom). The park hosts a beautiful lotus pond too.
- You have a nice combo. Are you using any of those talents/inclinations now?
 

Would you ever go on Junkyard Wars or Scrapheap Challenge?
jjg
                Only with Daver.
Kristal_Rose replies to jjg
                Not a real nut like me who makes bicyle powered air compressors to airbrush with or attempts
                powering my old cabin with steam generators, methane lamps, etc.
jjg replies to Kristal_Rose
                I know Daver outside of SC, and he is MacGuyver. Also, you just can't beat a Scotsman at finding
                uses for junk.
Kristal_Rose replies to jjg
I'm a Logan. I have that heritage of making everything from rocks and sticks (and even the sticks were made from peat and rocks) Believe me, ziplocks get washed, paper towels move from dirty to dirtier messes, boxes fill with scrap metal, plastic, etc. Basically I make my own everything. I have boxes labelled with everything for instance I have a couple boxes of 'sea soles', soles of ancient shoes washed up on shore which I use for macabre looking sculptural installations. I once (over a decade) created about 1000 crates of sorted Citroën car parts. They had 58 categories of metal parts ie upper door trims and I could tell you which year on which models they changed from 5x.75 to 5x.80 bolts (& visually discern pitch). Why they even had a 5x.90 pitch on one of the Ducellier spark coil terminals in the late 50's. I used to make complete factory quality wiring looms from scratch (oem bullet connectors), make complex ovoid AC housings, and I was resourceful in technique too, for instance I shaved 6 hours off a wiper linkage repair (customer ha'd to be out of state in a hurry) by welding through the air duct instead of removing the dash. Citroëns even had hydraulic computers; I figured if I learned to work on them, I could work on anything.

jkiehart replies to Kristal_Rose
                I'm on the whole other side of the continent in NY, NY.
Kristal_Rose replies to jkiehart
                That answers the question I posed two seconds ago. Is that your flavor of prescience (if such can
                be said to exist amongst creative people)? I was going to propose we meet astrally, or at least in
                dreams. Have you tried time travel yet? What spectrums are you working on? Water, Air, Fire,
                Earth, Electricity, Magnetism, What colors / pitches? narrative history energy? exceeded earth's
                timeline? How do you use the word? Intuition, dreaming, astral flight, ...
                Are you writing politics, science, theology, psychology, arts, climate, war disease famine and their
                cures, etc. etc. into being? Working on teleportation yet? Met all your basic deities? Stopped
                time? Opened worm holes or black holes? Controlling sattellite communications? Propogating
                species? Working on several planes, perhaps even multiple dimensions?
                - This list is far far short of omnipotent. And you can do all this and still be short of actually seeing
                the source of your very own creation. Perhaps we should say "Potentially omnipotent" or "Becoming
                omnipotent". Show up at my doorstep in a few minutes and I'll let you off the hook.
 

jkiehart replies to Kristal_Rose
                        By omnipotent, I meant I'm a know-it-all!
                        - I'm afraid of astral flight. What if I can't get back into my body? I've read that that happens.
                        What if I was astral projecting and my body died? Would my soul know what to do?
                        - Stopping time is a dream of mine! But how would aging work? Would I still age at the
                        normal pace? I can't imagine that I would, but then I imagine that indeed I would age at the
                        "normal rate."

Kristal_Rose replies to jkiehart 1.3.12
Astral flight: I make a prayer first that i will end up back in my body and with nothing more damaging than memories. But ultimately I don't believe we are physical anyhow, so it doesn't matter. When I first became a minister I had to talk to a ton of disenfranchised souls who were out of body but hadn't moved on, so yeah, it can happen unfortunately.
Stopping time: There are three ways I've encountered so far, the easiest is like being the sprung wound axle of a set of clock gears. You let everything from the periphery to the center (you) just freeze into non-form. It's not like you get to play ageless.
In the second, you simply divorce the actors from bindings with history; let them perform anything without it having had to have had a history, this one is fun in conjunction with not seeing time flow in particular direction. Once you know about the many levels of cause and effect, you can even replace the old "A then B" with "B now, then A later in the past." The only reason we even say B follows A is because we let our memory become unidirectional: from point B in time we also remember A, but most of us can not remember B from point A. When your memory covers the future too, saying time travels in a particular direction is fairly arbitrary.
The third method is to lock unlimited time-light in it's amorphous illusion of physical state to history slices like animation frozen in stone. It's Einsteins old E=mc**2 with the added provisions that you consider yourself the creative experiential center of the time energy flow, and replace a constant speed of light with one that goes from a standstill to infinity. The limits infinitely short of stopped or infinite particularly tweak with matter if i remember my calculations correctly. Seen in this way, every moment of history lives permanently frozen in matter. It was a spooky revelation for me who until just a month ago believed solely in an amorphous, timeless, realm of light interplay created in the moment. Spooky I suppose because it implied there were dimensions of reality that truly were out of the jurisdiction of creation in the moment.
 

Describe the types of images you have on your bedroom walls and/or ceiling. 1.3.8
20's glass fairy prints, Egytian relics, Japanese women and nature paintings, abstracts, watercolors of forests beaches lotus ponds, postcards of driftwood shacks and spaceage architicture, photos of the kids, dream catchers, balinese theater puppets, butterflies w/ grasses under glass and silver guilding, stained glass windows made by the kids, paisley tapestries, bones shells stones and crystals in the shape of deities, antique exotic jewelry, postcards from land-of-the-lost and star-trek, classical/swing/punk/intl vinyl colloction, pond painting, shimmering shell beaded curtains, home made designer lava-lamps, a 6' tall burl of redwood, coca-cola memorabilia, tons of white wicker including headboard and a princess throne which hovers near the ceiling, troll dolls & such, a 'beach party' movie poster, 3D glasses & antique viewmaster / keystone collection, celestial paintings and pillow, stone sculptures (a vaginal siva-trimurti I spent a year on and a green Alaskan stone filled wih gold I attemptedsculpting with an oxy-acetalene torch), lots of stork and swan lamps and paintings, polychromatic raku vases, silk prints, hula-hoops, 60's flourescent piggybank and floral picture frames, art-noveau lily lamp and other antique lamps, 1920-60's office supplies like flipping calendar, UFO pencil sharpener, various pyramids from metal pink bunny shade to pharoahs helmet which is actually a model of the kabbalistic tree-of-life I made for molecular modelling, sunglass collection, antique Martin saxaphone, fresh and dried floral arrangements, metaphysical library, homemade ritual candles and incensce burners, 60's princess pincushion with headress of rainbow pearl hatpins, 40's 'vogue' hats, 60's aquamarine hoover celebrity vacuum (looks like UFO), tons and tons of mirrors, mirrored disco ball, lots of Betty-Boop paraphernalia, Huge driftwood collection including walking staves, dragonflies, WWII ashtray made from 80mm shell inscribed with Samoa officers club and palm trees and other antique lighters, blown glass things, crystal balls, collection of dozens of exotic perfume essential oils, art pads, 1000's of post-it notes, dual monitor orange computer, turn of the century oil paint suitcase, file cabinets, plano cases of art supplies, misc. sculptures by kids, abalone shells, hand tri-tone framed blackboard, painting of sun as seen from under swamp, antique toy collection that serves as metaphysical diary, antique christmas decor, oil lamps, antique metaphysical tools like 30's lead-lined dental x-ray cabinet' antique purse collection...
All this and tools and furniture in a 10' x 12' bedroom/livingroom.

and some things others have, for instance a chrome robot arm draped with black bridal cloth supports a blue-neon black telephone, I have castle postcards from friends, but most of that sort of thing is contained in volumes of plastic sleeve notebooks. I even have Cinderellas castle on a porcelain bell with Tinkerbell, and a Pluto flip book I got at disneyland back in 1968 when I was 5.
The next room is the kitchen and would take as long to describe. I could summarise it as: occult herb collection stored in coca-cola bottles, spiritual knick-knacks cabinet, art-studio, and 60's rocket-deco appliances and houseplants.
 

What do you think other SC users would say about you if they were asked to tell
 what they know about you from your comments on SC? 1.3.11
Perhaps your [anonymous comment] box is malfunctioning. You did say you don't care what people think, didn't you? This site seems often to use a very modern communication ethic, crass honesty, which hopefully, not only for SC but for society at large will evolve into something more compassionate. In the mean time, to play along you may have to have an ego tough as nails.
You will get a warmer response when you drop being anonymous. Sure, some people will curse you for an attitudude, but they might do likewise if they didn't like a happy-face decal on your middle toe. Don't take it too personally. Don't get hurt by other sensitive hurt people, just amplify with your inquiries and responses those who do behave sincerely and warmheartedly as a carrier frequency for whatever their respectful personal viewpoints might be. Just like life, it's a vibe war. What precedent will take root and flow for how people interact.

Does anyone understand Women? 1.3.15
Kristal_Rose replies to anonymous
Just my 2¢. A woman stands a much better chance at understanding another woman don't you think? And who said that either person in a relationship has to fit either stereotyped role, or for that matter be denied doing both. Love and sensuousness and whatever else might fill a good relationship are natural expressions that will be fulfilled amongst any people that put their trust in each other as suits there unique personalities. There are people who love cats and people who hate cats, people who think their lovers and intimate friends are roles to be filled by different people, people who feel one way or another about abortion or motherhood or marriage, etc etc. No argument can be made one way or another that any of these viewpoints are products of confusion.
People here are going to respect you a lot more if you stop being anonymous. there's a fairly decent amount of respect for peoples viewpoints here anyhow. People are willing to accept you even if they don't like all that you have to say. I think most of us here would prefer to deal with genuine people who express and stand for what they say, and hopefully have their serious dialogue in a manner that reflects the compassion and sensitivity of the manner of those who will stick it out to be friends in spite of their differences. If you don't want to be our friend in spite of the respect that tends to be offered here, why should we even want you here? If, on the other hand, you are anonymous because you are sensitive to risk of losing your interpersonal connection here, then I suggest you don't even bother to say such stuff. Practice finding what works in non-anonymity. If you are trying to practice righteousness, then I remind you that God judges by what is in your heart. and that I feel would be taking the risk to speak as a friend.
 

Do you have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ? 1.3.15
Kristal_Rose replies to smurf
btw. I learned telepathic communication with animals more than a decade before I developed it with humans and it's still 10 times stronger.  I suppose telepathic communication with something still doesn't guarantee it has a soul, but I sure would have had trouble biting that one even without the ESP. Rabbi's go through an effort to deal with an animals soul during slaughter. You realise that very little of the religious world shares your belief. Do all people have souls in your book (excepting those who lost or sold theirs)?
Dang, where'd that thing go? I'm sure I had it yesterday. Oh No!!! The cat's got it! What am I going to do now? Mommmmm! What's the matter Billy? Cat got your soul? Told ya not to leave it on the floor.

Have you ever taped songs off the radio? 1.3.16
When I was a kid I had about 8 hours of solid no-duplicate, no commercials, favorites compilations off of Dr. Demento. Later I got into collecting Punk and New Wave. We had some great womens music (when the tom-tom club came out) off the college radio on 8-track. My favorite college tape had the disc jockeys going wild with three turn-tables at once playing Stockhausens 'metal machine music', some indian ragas, and the Velvet underground w' lou reed all in perfect harmony. Those were the days. I'm thinking to take it up again. I remember the reel-to-reels too. I think I had one.
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Kristal_Rose replies to drdt
Speaker to mic? When i was 10 I had patch outlets wired into everything including the phone (which I had connected to the entire building). I could broadcast my cousin/neighbor's calls over my Zenith Cobramatic Console to the whole neighborhood. That thing played a lot of Ventures, Jailhouse rock, White Album, Beach Boys, Hair,  and Carpenters.
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micah
               What's a radio?
Kristal_Rose replies to micah
               It was a mechanical device back from before people just passed along mp3's telepathically. It too
               was aided by a crystal reciever.
msgman replies to Kristal_Rose
               Excellent  :-)
micah replies to Kristal_Rose
               Hehehe....Liquid crystal? Was it ever on display?
Kristal_Rose replies to micah
               You be careful of those Gamma Ray Bursts.
micah replies to Kristal_Rose
               I don't deal with thermonuclear fusion on a day to day basis....do you?
Kristal_Rose replies to micah
               Daily no, frequently, yes. I was even beginning to wonder if I was deluding mysely about the energy
               fountains and vortexes I've been creating at home, since my sight hasn't been sensitive enough te
               see this stuff in a year, but my girlfriend visited and noticed and commented, so I feel much less
               doubt. My auras were the same way, I'd sculpt myself one in say green and purple, and I could
               never even see it, but then I'd visit a friend and their guest would make an unprovoked comment on
               my green and violet aura.
               The night before last I was at a rave, and that's when I most frequently bring out the particle
               projectors.

Have you ever seen a dolphin?1.3.16
At various shows and such. I've rescued a sea-lion, and seen a whale while swimming at the beach (sharks too). My friend used to swim with them at the beach. Hopefully that's on my agenda too.

romkey replies to micah
               I have had a snake's gloopy yellowish-green breath fall on me, but never a monkey's brown breath
               thrown at me. I will have to spend more time with monkeys.
               You're up early... or late.
micah replies to romkey
               That's nasty. Did you throw it?
romkey replies to micah
               I think I squealed like a pig.

micah
               Pig squealing snakes with gloopy yellowish-green breath. You've had quite a life, you realize that? I
               would consider that experience a privilege! Not many people get to see that.
romkey replies to micah
               it's not that much fun when it's dripping in your eye, believe me...
micah replies to romkey
               In your eye?!? You're kidding!!! Please tell me you're kidding!
romkey replies to micah
               you see, a friend of mine put his pet snake on my head once...
micah replies to romkey
               No! I told you to tell me you were kidding! ::getting noxious::
romkey replies to micah
               I don't always do as I'm told
micah replies to romkey
               Damn you! I'm gonna have to find someone else to say it then.
Kristal_Rose replies to micah
               He's kidding. T'was his very own snake giving ssssssssschglopppy green hydra brained
               schmooochies.
               Prior to ssssucking sssshucking sssuuking their hot anvil wax gurggily gone.
micah replies to Kristal_Rose
               ...not feeling much better...
Kristal_Rose replies to micah
               ... squeeeeeeeeall....   *LOL* *LOL*
 

Do you pray? 1.3.16
nasale
               I don't exactly pray because I don't agree with organized religion.I am still questioning what I do
               believe because it changes with experience. I am tilting towards believing in 'something more after
               death' but I guess I'll have to wait and see what that is (or not)
Kristal_Rose replies to nasale
               What does prayer have to do with organised religion? There are many levels of death and birth, so
               many available on this (somewhat) physical plane in this life. Why wait?
nasale replies to Kristal_Rose
               I really like your way of thinking- and you're right. I appreciate the fact that you give me pause for
              second thought.
Kristal_Rose replies to nasale
               Just thinking good thoughts to strangers is a form of prayer. As I bicycle through town I choose
               different sorts of prayers (mostly just spectral energy projections) for each passing car.
               After my 'dates' with my new girl friend I've had people yell insults at me (I'm transgendered).
               The other night after a date, I had some guy follow me to the market yelling insults. He was next to
               me in line where I just gazed into his eyes with what I might call Gebvurah or Jesus energy. As I
               exited the store he said 'God bless you', and I nodded to indicate 'that's more like it'. My point is
               positive energy can be quite a life saver.
Twistermime
               I Prey
Kristal_Rose replies to Twistermime
               Go get'em tiger. I do hope you mean stalk for positive rebirths if anything. Vampire technology
               ain't to different from the things I teach. Vampires avoid the source though. Well, I could get way
               into this topic, but I don't think it would benefit anyone here.
Kristal_Rose replies to Twistermime
               I'm shouldn't be pushing you should I? You already keep the torch alive.

What lies have you told online?
Kristal_Rose
                        Dad was right, you'll never experience the karma of an angel by lying. And there's never a
                        need to. Accept that God accepts you and operates the people you might have otherwise
                        lied to. If you want to complicate your life and be stuck on a level of reality where people
                        can't discern lies, be my guest though. Watch the people who lie; they get it back yet think
                        they're merely reacting to a world where lying is the norm.
nasale replies to Kristal_Rose
                        Luv ya!
 

What is the best name for my new son?
heyzeus1 replies to Kristal_Rose
               i have a cat named dammit
               and others named mars, venus, and achilles
Kristal_Rose replies to heyzeus1
               da mit, German for 'there with'.
               My cats are Volt(aire) and Schism (a faction of a church). You could call the whole collective
               Cerberus or Siva Trimurti.
Kristal_Rose replies to heyzeus1 1.3.16
               I was visiting an occult shop today (bought more books and oils) and someone was looking for all they could on
              Orion (sigels and such). My web site has mystical channelleing from Orion. The first time I talked to Jesus face to
              face was through the vehicle of a christian named Orion.
Kristal_Rose replies to heyzeus1
               I was visiting an occult shop today (bought more books and oils) and someone was looking for all
               they could on Orion (sigels and such). My web site has mystical channelleing from Orion. The first
               time I talked to Jesus face to face was through the vehicle of a christian named Orion.
heyzeus1 replies to Kristal_Rose
               Cerberus is good, but i have four cats, not three.
               what is your website?
Kristal_Rose replies to heyzeus1
               ereIam.com - I'm preparing for a major overhaul. Click on the scarab for what I'm calling orion,
               though I think it's from cygnus actually. Not sure, I have to get someone whor really recognizes
               partial constellations and celestial energy phenomenon.
               Yeah, I noticed the four vs three, but I couldn't recall any 4 headed critters. My girlfriend has 4
               cats too.
heyzeus1 replies to Kristal_Rose
               How 'bout the TetraHydraCannabanation?
               Yeah, cygnus is a great name too, I've always liked it. Didn't he represent balance in Greek
               mythology?
heyzeus1 replies to Kristal_Rose
               Hey Kristal, interesting website, though I didn't see a scarab...
Kristal_Rose replies to heyzeus1
               Go to the metaphysics section and click on the scarab or to the left of it where it says Egyptian
               Perfume oil and interstellar scans. That glowing blue thing is heiroglyphs from the underside of my
               scanning a scarab. (looks like the word laugh (laf)) I dont need any 4 headed water breathing
               dragons to deal with any of this stuff, or truncated-icosododechahedrons or other dinosaurs for
               that matter; other people do to keep up with me though. Cygnus was a (black?) swan.
               Hydra is in Leo, Orion in Taurus, and Cygnus in Aquarius. Cygnus is the swan which Zeus morphed into
               to woo Leda, wife of the king of Sparta. My mother has a star in cygnus named after her (my doing)
               called 'moiras muse'.
LoveLight
               Orion...he wants to be called Orion.
heyzeus1 replies to Kristal_Rose
               tetrahydracannabinol=THC in marijuanna, i was still suggesting a name for my collective, though I
               don't smoke pot...
               Rush had a song cygnus x-1 where they tell the tale of a man who builds a spaceship to fly into the
               black hole, when he reaches the other side, he becomes the god of balance...
               But I didn't know cygnus was the swan. If Cygnus was the swan that Zeus morphed into, then
               wouldn't the swan have been Zeus?
heyzeus1 replies to LoveLight
               I like Noah...
Kristal_Rose replies to heyzeus1
               Why do you think I threw in the word breathing? I know all my colchicine, light spectrums, etc. I had
               a plant that grew in offset threes rather than offset pairs. Back when I was 14, I used to play
               Johnny appleseed at the school, library, and police dept.'s garden. I subscribe to
               psychopharmacology journals where for instance you find that there is a CB2 receptor that
               responds to two chemicals: THC and chocolate.
               Yes, like Thor (lightening (& my birth name)) becoming Freya (aurora) and other fun tales. I've
               been working on that balance, and praying it's not a mistake. I danced with Kali energy but still used
               it to Siva ends. I've found myself surrounded by black holes when I became an energy fountain. and
               other balances of emotional propogation, etc. It leads me to believe that I should seek that same
               balance, or miss half my ultimate being. The going philosophy had been to promote positive karma,
               but I'm beginning to think parts of me are transcending the world as personal experience.
Kristal_Rose replies to heyzeus1
               Without Orion's, the Noah's wouldn't know where to take the ships the Bill's patronize.
 

Have you ever taped songs off the radio? 1.3.16
micah
               What's a radio?
Kristal_Rose
                         It was a mechanical device back from before people just passed along mp3's
                         telepathically. It too was aided by a crystal reciever.
msgman replies to Kristal_Rose
                         Excellent
micah replies to Kristal_Rose
                         Hehehe....Liquid crystal? Was it ever on display?
Kristal_Rose replies to micah
               You be careful of those Gamma Ray Bursts.

If you were in a band, which role/instrument would you MOST want to play? 1.3.16
Kristal_Rose
               Just tonight I was in a guitar store. I was close to getting a Framus f-hole acoustic bass with
               humbucker. I hear they finally came out with my idea to use a digitizer tablet to sculpt waves for
               synthesiser sound effects. The guy showed me a guitar with pearl 'lucky charms' he called them
               and played a fairy minstral polynesian umma-gumma song. I was good and am still waiting to pay off
               my credit debt first. I want something similar to the f-hole but 5 string, fretless, and lavendar
               wood finish. I play a pretty mean harmonica already and used to play an oak fender precision bass
               with pearl inlays. My style is sort of blues, celtic, pirate, ventures (surf), klesmer, hillbilly, swing,
               boogie-woogie, impressionist. 20 years ago I came up with software for live performance that still
               wont be technically feasable for another 20 years. It was sort of a holographic conveyor belt for
               sculpting sounds, riffs, effects, etc. Creating icons for them (like a bananna to represent your
               Velvet Underground harmonic distortion chorus effect) and plugging your virtual patch cord in at
               any place including directly at the live-time gate of the conveyor belt.
               I also want to play the saxophone. I bought one that will take way to much work to restore.
               I'd be playing lead and writing the songs. My voice sucks and my songs are too amorphous, arty,
               classical for words anyhow. I'd also be doing all the sound engineering. I once played with a board
               and got the music to sound like gold-dust angel flying through, my brother can get quite a black
               dragon crunch going.
Enheduanna replies to Kristal_Rose
               I hear "blues, celtic, pirate, ventures (surf), klesmer, hillbilly, swing, boogie-woogie, impressionist.
               20 years ago" is going to be a Grammy category next year; you'd better start recording now!
 
 

Do you sleep with any stuffed animals?
Kristal_Rose
               Yes, Fergus, a siberian tiger, from my kids in Alaska. I also sleep with two real cats, Urban tiger
               doves.
Kristal_Rose
               When I was a kid I had a mountain of animals on the bed. Either 'happy' (a blue & white wind-up
               musical pup from an easter trip to ojai, ca,us) or 'christmas dog' (50/50 Collie/Bulldog) would
               always get to sleep at the head of the bed, the rest were rotated nightly as the second critter at
               the head of the bed.
micah replies to Violet
               You beat me to it?!? Just because Violet is a more energetic wave than my favorite color, green.
               I'll just have to be ultra-violet next time. You're turning violet, Violet!
Kristal_Rose replies to micah 1.3.16
               I'm not sure what you mean there, but I just got Violet and Turquoise hair colors today. I also got a
               violet eyeliner grease pen, and lo and behold, after all these years I finally found violet mascara.
               Ahhh, Hollywood.  Those and spring green are my favorite aura colors to project personally,
               though I often stick to clear, white, and gold. Violet's also my favorite scent.
               Violet has violet christmas lights year round. I'm almost envious.
 

Would you prefer to be underdressed or overdressed? 1.3.19
I was at a party last night where I was wearing a long grey skirt. At least my top was danceable, it even had a crystal beaded tassel fringe. I did have to tear up Tara's clothes pile looking for a better skirt till i realised that would be the black and white diamond leathar ultra mini she just got at the goodwill. (I talked her into another wild `68 dress too.) I was Kali as well as my usual Siva this time and Tara ended up sleeping with someone else in the loft above me afterwards.  Crazy karma.
Normally I like to overdress. Everyonce in a while I'll notice that I'm the only dress outfit amidst 200 pairs of jeans though.

What is your favorite smell? 1.3.19
Kristal_Rose
               Oils of violet and jasmine. In cooking perhaps pineapple, cloves, and licorice, esp. in pizza sauces.
               Spellbound and Liz Claiborne are my favorite perfumes.

Have you ever had the same dream twice? 1.3.19
SueBee replies to Kristal_Rose
               Was that back before they blew up Jack?
Kristal_Rose
               During. We had idiots drive up to the window screaming "where's the beef?" too. The Tacos were
               made of TVP (texturized vegetable protein (soy)). Being in Santa Cruz we kinda had off the menu
               selections for vegetarians besides. We'd substitute eggs or cheese for meat patties on anything. I
               used to cook grill singing "Tie me jumbo jack down sport, tie me jumbo jack down."
 
 
 

What words describe your current romantic relationship(s)?
ARBORIS
               The saddest thing about the words I have chosen to describe my relationship - is that I ACTUALLY
               STILL CONSIDER IT A RELATIONSHIP!!
               I am in the midst of complete & total denial.
Kristal_Rose replies to ARBORIS
               I can not see someone for half a year, and still deny that it's over.
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wavez2000
               30, single, use to search, but quit, I enjoy life and if I find him I do, and if i dont, i havent lost a
               thing. I am content.
Kristal_Rose replies to wavez2000
               Unless you live in a plane of sustained grace, I'd think it time you ask the big chief for a favor. If
               you have a life of lessons as most of us do, there's little more challenging or rewarding as a
               relationship. At least you've had the chance now to build love in casual non-physical encounters. I
               imagine that was one of the many justifications for celibacy. Does your faith have an equivalent of
               'see God in your spouse'?
wavez2000 replies to Kristal_Rose
               I am conetnt..and i was engaged to be married, he was a jerk in the end.. god/big chief has given me
               so much, im happy, i use to worry about wether i'd get married or not, but ive passed that phase
               and know that god has it all under controll. Yes i want my future spouse (if any) to know jesus as his
               lord and go to church..

               When i was engaged to be married, in the beginning it was great, i loved him and desired him,but
               believed to wait til i was married, like i still do..he turned into a jerk with no feelings other than
               what was between his legs..if he really loved me, he would have waited..this isnt to say i didnt "make
               out" or things of that nature with him..i did love him deeply..but there was a line i drew..i'd quit when
               it got to heavy..why?? becuse i want to know that i did what was right in god's eyes and mine..

               so no there's nothing wrong with what im doing..and i dont need to ask god for a favor..and i dont
               have to have sex with anyone before im married. 30 or 80...it is all good in god's eyes..and mine..
               i dont need a justification for saving myself..or waiting..
Kristal_Rose replies to wavez2000 1.3.19
               I don't think you understand much of what I'm asking. I too only had sex with the woman I married
               and one I at least thought I'd be marrying, and that is still my stance. There is a plane of
               consciousness/reality which is totally in the moment and all is your interaction with God, no one else.
               If I lived there permanently it would be alright to sleep with whomever, but I do not. I live mostly
               on the interpersonal time & history -based plane, where I make commitments and ask the same of
               my partner.
               Whethar or not your partner accepts Jesus has little to do with whethar you are able to see Jesus
               manifest in others interactions with you. Sufiism for instance is heavily about that, Christianity for
               some reason has shrouded the grand scale manifestation of God on Earth and within each other
               practically since it's inception. Miracles are no longer, God can't be experienced till you die, leave
               the physical, and go to heaven. There are of course so many references to the Logos and other
               manifestations of God we could be interacting with still in the bible, but most Christian sects
               de-emphasise such presence. I was wondering about your sect specifically. As to the justification
               of celibacy, again I was asking you to second guess the motivation of your faith. Christianity is
               loaded with more tests than all other religions combined, things where if you follow the
               requirements diligently you will learn something new about your consciousness, and find that the
               requirement was more of a learning trick than some purposeless mandate to be followed for it's
               own sake.
               Catholicism replaced people directly interacting with God, with interacting with a hierarchy of
               saviours, holy-men, sages, the pope, priests, etc. Part of that doctrine included 'men' being subject
               to God, and 'women' being subject to 'men'. The only virtue I see in that system is it's admission
               that God's will can be manifest through others. The hindu teach tales of loving an army of demons
               that come to defeat you and consequently their swords turn to flowers.
               I'm sorry if I steer you away from personal issues to theosophic contemplations. But I feel they
               should be the same in the life of a responsible person on a holy path.
               My basic question stands: Do you consciously interact with God, and can you see folks like your
               suitor as a direct result of that interaction, if not even a vehicle for tho Logos itself?
               My motive is not (too) judgemental. I know the mechanics of several paths. When I discover the
               exact flavor of yours, I'd simply like to provide food for thought that might get you a rung up your
               ladder. In the process, I might get a new understanding of what some people do.
wavez2000 replies to Kristal_Rose
               I just dont believe in sex till I am married, due to religous and personall beliefs. If the man hasnt
               accepted jesus as his lord..jesus isnt within his heart and life, I dont compromise on that, nor do i
               debate other's beliefs, i respect them, like i respect yours..I wont be swayed or compromise my
               beliefs. Thanks for your replys my friend..
Kristal_Rose replies to wavez2000
               Ouchh! sorry.
               I had your first point anyhow.
               Aren't you at least allowed to examine and understand your own 'why's and 'what's by comparative
               analysis? After all, the same book could have made you a Baptist or Christian Scientist.
Kristal_Rose
               Content, hmmm........
 

Do you feel that it is right to date someone considerably older or younger than you?
Some say that that is just sick. Others believe that love should have no age. What do you have to say?
star2b_ca
               TO EVERYONE!
               IT'S BEEN A FUN RIDE, BUT IT MUST COME TO AN END. I FEEL THAT I HAVEN'T BEEN
               ABLE TO COMMUNICATE WITH THOSE WHO PARTICIPATE ON MY SURVEYS. I CAN MAKE
               EXCUSES, BUT NOTHING JUSTIFIES WHY I CAN'T WRITE ANYMORE. TIME IS PRECIOUS
               AND, FRANKLY, I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH OF IT. THEREFOR, THIS IS THE END OF IT.
               I WON'T BE CANCELLING MY ACCOUNT (MAINLY BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW) SO IF
               YOU FEEL MY SURVEY IS A PLACE THAT GETS YOU IN CONTACT WITH ANYONE ELSE, FEEL
               FREE TO USE IT. HOWEVER, DON'T EXPECT ME TO BE WRITING BACK.
               I WANTED TO THANK EVERYONE FOR HELPING ME SINCE OCTOBER 1ST (THE DAY MY
               FIRST SURVEY WAS ISSUED).
               JEMS, TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND KNOW THAT THERE IS MORE TO LIFE THAN GUYS.
               KRISTAL_ROSE, YOUR ADVICE HAS GUIDED ME THROUGH SINCE DAY ONE AND YOUR
               WORDS OF WISDOM ARE AN INSPIRATION. I KNOW I DON'T SPEAK FOR MYSELF WHEN I
               SAY YOU ARE EXTREMELY RESPECTED FOR YOUR WONDERFUL INPUT.
               MAARTEN, REMEMBER THAT WHEN I BECOME THE FAMOUS STAR I TOLD YOU ABOUT,
               YOU'LL BE THE FIRST ON MY VISIT LIST! A PROMISE IS A PROMISE!
               MIREILLENS, GOOD LUCK, AND DON'T GIVE JEMMY TOO MUCH OF A HARD TIME. SHE'S
               YOUNG!
               IAMLOSER, THANK YOU. THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME REALIZE THAT ALTHOUGH
               SOMEONE DOES NOT LIKE SOMETHING I HAVE DONE, IT SHOULD NOT BE TAKEN
               PERSONALLY. THERE ARE HITS AND THERE ARE MISSES.
               SO, THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH. OH! I REALLY HOPE THE PEOPLE I MENTIONED CAN READ
               WHAT I SAID. IF ITS POSSIBLE TO SPREAD THE WORD TO THOSE PEOPLE (JEMS, I KNOW
               I CAN TRUST YOU TO DO THAT FOR ME). THANK YOU.
               GOOD-BYE!

               ANGELA VELLA
               AKA
               star2b_ca
Jemmy replies to star2b_ca
               But not all guys are like that. I know it seems like it sometimes, but they really are not all bad.
Kristal_Rose replies to star2b_ca
               Dear Angela: I'd be sorry to see you go. I just read every one of your comments and have an idea
               why you're not communicating. Before reading i thought perhaps it was because you weren't asking
               questions; you didn't really ask me any. then I looked at your comments and saw that in many ways
               they were like my own. (and consequently I've just learned more about myself).
               I could be wrong about you but I can at least give my opinion on how it would appear you are coming
               off to others. You have made this survey your pulpit. You speak sweetly and thankfully with respect
               and yet it seems you have come to spread your wisdom (as most often do I). For a true teacher,
               every direct teaching experience should be a learning experience. Not like using a diagnostic tool to
               put your subject on the map of your belief system, but to actually surrender to seeing things their
               way to the extent that you see that from where they're at, their decisions and philosophies do seem
               the most valid. In contrast it seems you ask questions as a launching point to telling it as you believe
               it works. there is another level of sharing yourself and others that is more of a rough-housing than a
               dry sweet love in concept. Build a rapport of trust with others that is more IMHO than 'as i see it it
               is', unless your certain of both your content and the receptivity style of your Friend, and that is a
               rare gift on this planet.
               I also notice the winds of change waft strong in your white mirrored closet. You develop an alarmist
               sensitivity and hit the caps lock (which is quite disfavoured at SC it seems). We are usually on a
               cross-roads which involves not only the physical and ethical, but the perceptual as well. As you
               believe the world to be (by surrender, not insistence), so it becomes. Half empty cups get spilled,
               half full cups are savored. It would be a shame for you to leave without finding the friends you
               actually had lurking here.
               I find myself speaking in poetic clichés which isn't quite my style, and although you don't, I suspect
               it is a common tongue I picked up in my efforts to understand your vibes. I hope you give SC
               another shot. I eventually had to leave my idealistic ivory tower and play in the senseless dirt. But
               there I found the pearls. Love, Kristal McKinstry.
Jemmy replies to Kristal_Rose
               Okay, I finally understand what you were saying before about love, and having to feel worthy. I was
               watching Oprah, and it was about how you have to love yourself in order for other people to love
               you, and you don't need to constantly try to please others in order to get there acceptance. That's
               exactly what I've been doing. I feel like I'm always climbing, always trying to please people so that
               they'll tell me it's okay now, we love you. But I guess I don't have to do that. I don't have to try
               and make people love me.
Kristal_Rose replies to Jemmy
               feel loved, be loved. Yeah. Do things out of love for others too, but if you do it to try to have them
               love you than that wasn't really love was it?. Keep it up and you'll have orchestras of song birds
               accompanying you.
Jemmy replies to Kristal_Rose
               Yeah, now all I have to do is convince myslef it's true. It's hard to try and change how you feel, and
               change your habits after acting a certain way for so long.And it's hard to move on when people don't
               love you.
Kristal_Rose replies to Jemmy
               Well, I love you and so do many others. Please do move on and get yourself a little closer to the
               secret of life. Real change happens through spiritual energy. You are the most important part of
               what you see and create around you. When were you ever inspired by someone who did not care for
               themself at all? Even if your goal was nothing but to make others feel better, you'd still have to a
               rich self to actually accomplish that. Eventually, if you connect highly with God, you won't really have
               to worry much about yourself anyhow; that part will be taken for granted, freeing you to be a
               selfless source of love. But that's a long way off. And even then, were talking about living without
               attachment, in contrast, you, you will always have around, so start there. That means rest when you
               need to rest, work when you need to work, play when you need to play. Most often if you ask
               yourself what God would want for you (within your environment) at any moment, you will find that
               people will actually go along with it too, even if you thought the rules said otherwise.
Jemmy replies
  to Kristal_Rose
               I know people love me. At least, I think I do. I don't know, it's really hard. I always feel like
               they're better than I am, like I'm not worth their love, but I want it. On Oprah they said you have
               to find out what caused you to feel this way. I don't think anything caused it. Living without
               attatchment to what? Should I put my needs before other people's like that?
Kristal_Rose replies to Jemmy
               Mostly just watch your motives. Don't do things because society or protocol says it right, just do
               the things that are right. If your helping others (and you should), do it because you want them
               helped, not because you think you should make sacrifices nor because you wanted them to anything
               about you what-so-ever. Take the top view of things: if it's much easier for you to reach something
               dropped, do it (like helping old people). Don't give away something you'll need. God would consider
               equally important as anyone else, not less, not more; and even then some people willed their own
               misfortune into being and shouldn't drain you. You should have plants and music and some time to
               write poetry or whatever makes you feel better without being hedonistic (living for pleasure). The
               most conscientious thing to do is to figure out what you enjoy doing most that helps others the most.
               There shouldn't be any reason for you to to be glum in the things you do, but some of that is
               attitude, meaning you will have to do things like clean the cat box, but you might as well sing a song
               and make the best of it. I remember one piece of advice was to run your life like you were someone
               else doing it.
               I'm not sure what you meant by "Should I put my needs before other people's like that?". There
               are certainly times when you have to say no to people; Like for instance if someone was trying to
               keep you around because they were bored but you had productive things you wanted to be doing.
               Don't lift something that might get you hurt.

               Were talking mostly about behavior here but the important thing is outlook. Try this experiment:
               get yourself real depressed, think about all the things that ever made you cry or consider suicide
               while listening to the radio. While you do this, write down all the miserable lyrics that you can relate
               to. Then cheer yourself up. Think about all the things that make you want to sing and dance, and
               again, get out your pen and paper and write down all the stuff now that you hear on the radio that
               sounds like your mood. You should notice that the radio played gloomy songs when you were gloomy,
               and cheerful songs when you were cheerful. Likewise, in such a supernatural way, your friends and
               strangers will also react. You have to be stronger than them and set the mood of your environment,
               not react like you do now. Even if you are listening to a friends troubles, be the light shining down
               upon them, not the shadow they cast, otherwise you help neither them nor you. If you are doing your
               best, you always have a reason to be cheerful. One main part of detachment is not relying on
               anything or anyone in particular for your satisfaction. Know when to move on, and know that God
               always has something good in mind for you. Individuals can always let you down, though they are
               great way for God to show you intermittantly how she cares. But it's karma too. Karma is about how
               you feel and think; that's what comes back to you. Tell someone you think their dress looks great
               (because you want to make their day better) and someone else will say the same to you, give a buck
               tip at a coffee stand (because you think the'll appreciate the tip, not because you consider it part
               of the price), and someone will swing by when your thirsty and ask if you want a coke. But, if you give
               your friend a soda because you want them to thank you or give you something later, you're sure to
               be let down a lot of the time. Then you might get down on yourself and think things like "well, if I
               just gave them the right stuff, they'd be nicer to me." Ain't gonna happen. If God want's
               "everyone" to be happy, what would she have you be doing? Neither selfishness nor sacrifice.
               Try that experiment with the radio. It will give you a taste of why it's so important to your world
               that you be cheerful.
Kristal_Rose replies to Jemmy
               Just this minute, the spring equinoxe hit LA. The birds became quite chirpy.
Jemmy replies to Kristal_Rose
               I meant that I always thought I should take care of other people before I took care of myself,
               putting their needs before mine. I know why I do that though, I like to help others with their
               problems so that I can put off solving mine. It is a lot easier to help others than to help myself. I
               get more enjoyment out of helping tohers than I do out of doing something for myself too. That's
               why it always hurts more when something happens to someone that I can't help with.
               Not relying on anyone or anything for satisfaction...that's interesting. Especially because that is
               exactly what I do. But what else makes me happy? I'm not satisfied unless everyone else is, so how
               can I be satisfied without relying on someone else to be?
               I love telling people how beautiful I think they look. I know it makes them happy. I don't really like
               it when people tell me though, I don't believe them, or it makes me think that that means I don't
               look good every other day.
               Sacrifice and selfishness often come hand in hand. I sacrifice things because of fear of selfishness.
               I'll try the thing with the radio, it seems intriguing.
               I can't believe spring is finally here, I love spring! It is full of flowers and color, and warmth, and
               almost my whole family was born in april, and I love birthdays! I'm so glad today is the first day of
               spring. (9:31 this morning!) I dressed in spring colors. It makes me so happy.
Kristal_Rose replies to Jemmy
               I would imagine it was inherited from you parents. You can still enjoy all the things you enjoy,
               especially the people, just don't ever expect it, let it always surprise you. I used to be like you; I
               would even get depressed when people complimented me because I felt I didn't deserve it. Tell
               me why should Britney Spears or Bill Clinton deserve a compliment more than you? In your own way
               you try just as hard, and are probably even sweeter. Do what it takes to think of yourself as an
               angel, or at least a saint. Apparently spring makes you happy. You should probably be working on
               finding what makes you happy besides making others happy. You've been raised on catholic shame
               like I was (came from Ireland I guess, even if mom's family schucked the religion itself). God made
               you like you, not like like something that can't be attained, and you weren't made to feel lowly,
               second class, or dejected in any way. You should be a tribute to glory. Look at the people you
               admire; some might be mother Teresa's, others might be pop stars; some are selfless, others
               self-centered, yet you would still probably consider them deserving of praise for their choice of
               earrings or the way they rescued a kitten just as you should be. If you can't love yourself exactly
               as you are now, then at least there is something easily within reach you could love yourself as, and
               you can love yourself all along the way simply for being on that path. Don't rely upon some goal
               though before you feel worthy, because there will always be a bigger goal than that when you get
               there. As the buddhists are fond of saying "it's the path, not the destination". Look at all those
               christians who feel alive or righteous for no other reason than feeling they made the right choice.
               That you love spring is reason enough for me to love you and you to love you. Love love, and find ways
               to have it your in life no matter who, what, or where you are, no matter who you're with, or even if
               you're alone with a radio or paintbrush. Love love; ultimately it's all the universe need consist of,
               and it's always available. Do not worry if you need to see it by spreading it or receiving it, and don't
               ever turn down opportunities to do either. You'll be creating even more love in others by being
               better able to receive what others offer you, instead of looking down at your shoes rather than
               smiling eye to eye when you get a compliment. Even loving yourself takes effort. If you look at
               yourself as two people, god's subject, and god's servant (this is one religious philosophy; I could
               have phrased it as manty others as well) then you as a servant you could do all your service of
               putting together a nice perfumed bubble bath with hot tropical rain for one of gods subjects who is
               particularly worn and would much appreciate it, namely again, you.
Jemmy replies to Kristal_Rose
               Wow. I totally understand and love every word of what you just wrote.  :-)
Kristal_Rose replies to Jemmy
               You're welcome. Cool, I get to be personal Oprah to my internet niece.

Who were your role models when you were a child?
Kristal_Rose
                           Walt Disney, Leonardo Da Vinci, Thomas Edison, Albert Einstein, Spock, Wrigley (only
                           because I wanted Catalina Island as my own country), captain nemo, and when I was a
                           teen, sundry mystics, occult teachers, and spiritual leaders, and when I went to
                           college, various artists in all media.
Biggles286 replies to Kristal_Rose
                           "Spock" Dr. or Mr.?
Kristal_Rose replies to Biggles286 1.3.19
               Both, but 'Live long and prosper' was the one I was nick-named after.
Biggles286 replies to Kristal_Rose
               You were nicknamed Spock? I'm not sure if that's a good or a bad thing! I suppose it depends on
               your perspective.......
bill replies to Kristal_Rose
               fascinating
Kristal_Rose replies to Biggles286
               Yearbooks signed "to the computer", back when we used sliderules in math and barefoot professor
               movies were all we had to go on. I can't say I was happy about it at all. We had a paperback by
               Nemoy called "I am not Spock" that gave me hope. (Sitting coincidentally right next to the famous
               book on child raising).
bill replies to Kristal_Rose
               Didn't he also write a sequel to that book, "I am Spock".
               You're doomed.
bill replies to Kristal_Rose
               Seriously.... Spock is a pretty amazing character. The surface "unemotional" Spock persona is a
               ruse. The reality was that he possesses a strong/deep emotional side with foundations in loyalty and
               love. OK, I'm talking about a fictional character, but my point is that you shouldn't feel bad being
               compared to him.
Kristal_Rose replies to bill
               I schucked the surface ruse when I changed genders. Have you heard him (Nemoy) sing? "Bilbo",
               "Fluke of the universe".
               I think the weirdest thing I heard about Nemoy was that they had to do a lot of make up because he
               was tearing himself up motorcycling in the desert between shoots. Not only did I act like Spock, I
               also looked like him. I think that's why I grew my hair long back in the 6th grade. (but then that was
               the cool thing to do anyhow then)
               Now I relate to most of the crew, esp. 7of9, Janeway, Doctor, Tuvok, Kess, and Chakote.
               Weird, I had two dogs just visit my remote porch, a dalmation and a gordon setter. Wonder how
               they even got in the building.
bill replies to Kristal_Rose
               I used to own a vinyl record of Nimoy singing "The Ballad of Bilbo Baggins", among other things. I
               recently threw it away, though I toyed with the idea of trying to sell it on ebay. I thought it would
               be better (for the world) if I destroyed it.
               Did you have pointer ears as a kid?
Kristal_Rose replies to bill
               I would have been glad to own the insidious thing. It was a collectors item even a decade ago. I once
               frisbeed a Beatles album (the Beatles with Tony Sheridan) that predated their first official
               hamburg release. I couldn't believe then that the real Beatles once sang "My Bonnie" and "the
               Saints".
               I had the black bowl cut, but substituted webbed toes (Irish silkies). My (step)dad was clearly a
               cross between Dr. Smith and Uncle Martin. He had me doing circuits by age 5, studying energy
               physics and cryptography by 8, and taught me every wierd and ancient religion he could get his
               hands on. I think it was partially in homage to him that I got my ministry certificate. I figured you
               had the album when I made the comment "Mr. 10 meanings must mean nothing at all. Mr
               BullBailBullBallBoilBellBilbo, only 3 feet tall. God forgive me." in the survey "What's your attitude to
               religion?" long ago about you. The synchronicity with twisty's Sam was just an aside (you'll recall I
               was trying for several layers of interpersonal metaphorical connection / significance with folks
               back then).
 
 
 
 

Do you believe the press is biased in favor of gays? 1.3.19
Kristal_Rose
               So many shows and ads have pro gay elements that it has made me wonder if it's part of a zero
               population growth program.
bill replies to Kristal_Rose
               Z               P               G               !
romkey replies to Kristal_Rose
               but so many more have pro-straight elements, too...
Biggles286 replies to Kristal_Rose
               What do you mean by "zero population?" Am I just being dense?!
Kristal_Rose replies to Biggles286
               I didn't bother to put it in initials (ZPG) like bill did because it seems the topic has been removed
               from the public eye since the 70's. Zero Population 'Growth' means we should only pro-create to an
               extent necessary to maintain, not increase the globes population. That seems to have been
               facilitated since the 70's by several techniques: increased birth control (including foods,
               supplements, and unrelated medical treatments which have the same effect), and a massive change
               in values such that career is now more important than child-bearing and educated women are
               probably having kids ten years later now. Most TV shows had an element of child raising back then,
               now it's rare to see prime time role models even consider having kids. Promotion of Lesbian/Gay
               relationships is simply a further extension of that. And marriage... sure they can sell some rings and
               dresses, but it's nothing like the duplicate quantities of computers, stereos, toaster ovens etc. that
               can be sold when couples don't decide to get together. I've noticed billboards in well educated
               areas are very pro-family; those in poor areas are quite anti-kid. You'll notice that 'Family Planning'
               organisations like 'Planned Parenthood' (Geez, talk about your 1984 doublespeak) are very
               targeted.
               Be sparse? or as it was said in the bible once "be fruitful..."  *LOL*
 

What if....
Someone you know came up to you with a syringe of heroin (you have proof that the needle is clean and that
     the heroin is pure and the correct dosage) and a briefcase of money. How much would have to be in the
     briefcase for you to shoot up? 1.2.24
{Trinity Metaphors}
wavez2000
               I'd laugh at the person and say "hey..i dont need no drugs..i got the father son and the holy
               ghost..dig it!!!" and walk off
Kristal_Rose replies to wavez2000 1.3.19
               Could you explain those terms for us? If I told you I have Legos, Play-doh, and an Acme
               disintegrator ray, I don't think you'd be sold, or perhaps the Sattvic, Tammasic, and Rajjassic
               Gunas, or maybe Keter, Chochmah, and Binah. Why should I dig your earth and drink your wine? I
               want an ingredient list first. What's it made of? What's it do?
wavez2000 replies to Kristal_Rose 
read the bible..enough said..
Kristal_Rose replies to wavez2000 
I just gave you a cryptic answer based on some other cultures metaphors for the same stuff.
I read it every decade or so. God had me sit through someones testimony without teaching any the
other night (so I could learn the strengths & limitations of her experience I guess)(I am a
minister). Some texts from other cultures explain it much better. I just read Romans last night. I
read it primarily so I can explain things to who solely use a western vocabulary. God has shown me
much of the bible first hand, as either visions of history, or mystic events now. I merely wanted to
see how well you understood the forces of active and passive material and spirit forces of creation
and dissolution, and all things like the logos which lie between. Archetypal knowledge is my bag
though, and the method by which I hope to get people to merge with God. It's certainly not the only
method that works. Those terms above were hindu and jewish terms that predate the bible, and
toys and cartoons which are synonyms (& almost metaphors) for the greek from which your bible
was written. Do you speak with the Logos, or just consider it something divine to revere which you
have never encountered.
I dont care how well a person has remembered their trig formualas if they can't calculate the
distance between two water skiiers given two rope lengths and the angle between them.
Except when I'm in a high state and miss the ground level details, I generally consider the bible a
very depressing document likely to make people suffer, confused, and in the case of folks like me,
any religion is a step further away from god. Religions are doors or bridges, they go both
directions. The goal is to know God.

The point of my prior comment was really that your terms mean no more to that person on the
street than the alternative vocabulary did for you. I don't think my saying them would have helped
the person on heroin any more or less than yours.
read some more bibles.. it never hurts to know the similarities and differences between you and
your neighbors. keep in mind the not only the names, but even the strutures and conceptions and
achetypes will be different. The deeper you understand faiths, the more they become similar
however. Well good luck. Perhaps I shouldn't have picked on you, but I just hate to see people
drops names and terms without being able to illustrate them.

wavez2000 replies to Kristal_Rose 
im doing just fine in my walk with christ, and i dont need to "illustrate" or "prove" anything to
anyone and im not persuing this arguement any further so let's just drop it..i know who i am
in christ jesus. 

hat if....
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that the heroin is pure and the correct dosage) and a briefcase of money. How much would have to be
in the briefcase for you to shoot up?

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No amount of money would be enough for me to do this
7
I don't know
7
Somewhere in the millions
6
It would not require any money for me to do this
5
Somewhere in the billions
2
$100,000 or less
2
$500,000 or less
2
One million or less
1
$50,000 or less
1
$500 or less
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$1000 or less
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kirst 
I have no desire to ever shoot up with heroin. Money doesn't even enter into the equation.
juliw replies to
kirst 
I'm with you. 
spidertea 
I'm with both of you!!!
Chance 
Sorry all. No amount of money could. 
ASexyBabe 
I think that some people would say they wouldn't do it just because they are afraid they
would get addicted. One time is all it takes it is instantly adictive.
albert 
Assuming I was in the right situation, and L was with me, I would probably just do it.
albert replies to
ASexyBabe 
Http://www.erowid.com nothing is instantly addictive, do some research.
Jemmy 
...how much are you willing to give me?
kate 
No way, no how!
Kristal_Rose 
If it were legal and clinical, $500 would be about right to cover what I guess would be a
couple days of really having to focus. I've had a couple acquaintances who were able to
resist any addiction and one freind who spent years of trying to quit every 3 weeks for
years while holding a job the whole time.
romkey 
I'm curious what the experience would be like, and how it compares with other
psychoactives. I think I have the fortitude to not not get hooked (no, it's not instantly
addictive, like any drug it requires repeated exposures to train your body to need it). I
wouldn't need to be paid, and if I wasn't comfortable with it, money wouldn't change my
mind.
Twistermime 
I wouldn't do it for any amount of money
Enheduanna 
I wouldn't do it because I'm pretty sure I'd like it too much.
BlueberryMuffin
As much as I want to scream "no, never!", several million dollars is an argument worthy of
consideration.
Kristal_Rose
replies to
spidertea 
Impressive survey
I was just contemplating what it was to truly 'sell out'... succumbing to real evil.
Pooh_Bear 
I don't know enough about heroin to make that decision. With one needle-full, are you
addicted for life?
they 
I'd do it for 35,000. 
spidertea
replies to
Kristal_Rose 
Thanks.
ASexyBabe
replies to albert 
I have known people that have been instantly addicted. I tend to believe friends more than
studies.
albert replies to
ASexyBabe 
Not true at all, and believing friends over studies is silly. An addiction [Which, in its true
form [before the government anti drug people got ahold of the word] is physical.], by its
nature, cannot be caused by a single use of any substance. True, you may have LIKED it so
much that you wanted to do it again, but that is purely figurative and does not represent an
actual addiction, rather having more to do with the persons personality than the drug. "I was
addicted to sex". If this person goes on to do stupid things in the name of sex [although
generally it would be more difficult to do something classically labelled as stupid because
sex is socially acceptable and legal], or drugs, that is something having to do with you liking it
and not an ACTUAL addiction. Sure, after having used certain drugs, you are going to have
physical withdrawl symptoms that can be cured by using more of the drug, so you are
SLIGHTLY addicted. HOWEVER, the duration and severity of these symptoms tend to
increase exponentially with each subsequent use, and generally, a perfectly normal and
stable person with a healthy background and life, could be given a normal dose of a
substance in a clinical setting, and it is HIGHLY unlikely that they would continue to use that
substance. 
The thing is, 
1) Screwed up people are the only people who use drugs [-socially acceptable ones] once.
2) Screwed up people are the only people who are at high risk of addiction to ANY [-socially
acceptable] drug.
3) Addiction rates after first time use appear unrealistically high. First time users of heroin
are not representative of the general population, therfor, there addiction rates after first
time use cannot be applied to the general population. 

Generally, if you are screwed up enough to use heroin once, it is not surprising that you are
screwed up enough to form an addiction. 
Even in that situation though, abuse rates after first time use tend to be in the 10% range.
There are 10 people who have used heroin and do not abuse it, for every person who abuses
it. And the person who abuses it, had serious psychological problems to BEGIN with. 
phoebe01 
I'm too saintly to do drugs. 
hildagard 
I'd do any kind of shit with anyone anywhere. I'm not smart enough to see what's right and
what's wrong. 
Kristal_Rose
replies to
spidertea 
Was that your intent, or were you focused on the particular situation?
Kristal_Rose
replies to
hildagard 
bs, your comment alone betrays itself. what you mean is you'll take the risky side of your
doubts, and don't care enough about yourself to contemplate your options down to how
glorious or miserable you could become. You haven't decided you want the best, but you can
discern better from worse. If you have people you envy or admire, that alone indicates that
deep down you have the right wisdom.
Lauren 
NEVER!!!!!!! I'm not into drugs, and I don't think I could ever do it.
KelBel 
No amount of money would make me do that.
Maarten 
527.6 billion
jkiehart 
Wait: I would get drugs AND money?? I've always had to pay for it, before. I'd do it for
nothing.

*covers head with hands and waits for moral backlash*
Mariah 
I don't know. I would probably have to see the money first. I do enjoy a good high now and
then, but heroin... It's just so, so scary to me!!!
mary 
I would not accept any money for this, cause if I really really liked it and wanted more and
had like $500,000 from it I would be doomed. Cause I would spend all that money on it. 
Kristal_Rose
replies to mary 
I didn't think of that.
Maarten replies
to jkiehart 
You can buy excellent quality when you're here in Amsterdam! 
jkiehart replies
to Maarten 
Crazy, crazy Amsterdam!

How's the new digs, Maarten?
Maarten replies
to jkiehart 
It kicks ass! I'm enjoying every single minute. I'll make some pics soon so you can see it for
yourself!
jkiehart replies
to Maarten 
That'd be just swell!
micah 
What is this "or less" crap. That means I could pick 1 million or less and wind up with 1 dollar.
wavez2000 
I'd laugh at the person and say "hey..i dont need no drugs..i got the father son and the holy
ghost..dig it!!!" and walk off
Kristal_Rose
replies to
wavez2000 
Could you explain those terms for us? If I told you I have Legos, Play-doh, and an Acme
disintegrator ray, I don't think you'd be sold, or perhaps the Sattvic, Tammasic, and
Rajjassic Gunas, or maybe Keter, Chochmah, and Binah. Why should I dig your earth and
drink your wine? I want an ingredient list first. What's it made of? What's it do?
supplicant 
I have several friends who have been addicted and then got off it (and been clean for years
as far as I know)... but I'm not confident that I wouldn't get addicted. That said I'm sure
there would be a point where the gain would outweigh the risk and I'd take them up on it.
That point would probably be the point at which I could buy a house outright and have enough
money to live off and fund my own little rehab program for a while. A bit melodramatic I
know but I think I could get addicted very easily and I'm happy(ish) now; so why risk it for
nothing?

It would also probably depend on how it'd be injected: by me or a trained professional that
I trust? If the former count me out 
Persephone 
What?
Some people would actually ask for the money to try heroin.
I'd do it for free (did it already).
If the person is attractive, and is the prefered gendar, I would even ofer tosleep with him
if he'd like me to. 
wavez2000
replies to
Kristal_Rose 
read the bible..enough said..
Kristal_Rose
replies to
wavez2000 
I just gave you a cryptic answer based on some other cultures metaphors for the same
stuff.
I read it every decade or so. God had me sit through someones testimony without teaching
any the other night (so I could learn the strengths & limitations of her experience I
guess)(I am a minister). Some texts from other cultures explain it much better. I just read
Romans last night. I read it primarily so I can explain things to who solely use a western
vocabulary. God has shown me much of the bible first hand, as either visions of history, or
mystic events now. I merely wanted to see how well you understood the forces of active and
passive material and spirit forces of creation and dissolution, and all things like the logos
which lie between. Archetypal knowledge is my bag though, and the method by which I hope
to get people to merge with God. It's certainly not the only method that works. Those terms
above were hindu and jewish terms that predate the bible, and toys and cartoons which are
synonyms (& almost metaphors) for the greek from which your bible was written. Do you
speak with the Logos, or just consider it something divine to revere which you have never
encountered.
I dont care how well a person has remembered their trig formualas if they can't calculate
the distance between two water skiiers given two rope lengths and the angle between them.
Except when I'm in a high state and miss the ground level details, I generally consider the
bible a very depressing document likely to make people suffer, confused, and in the case of
folks like me, any religion is a step further away from god. Religions are doors or bridges,
they go both directions. The goal is to know God.

The point of my prior comment was really that your terms mean no more to that person on
the street than the alternative vocabulary did for you. I don't think my saying them would
have helped the person on heroin any more or less than yours.
read some more bibles.. it never hurts to know the similarities and differences between you
and your neighbors. keep in mind the not only the names, but even the strutures and
conceptions and achetypes will be different. The deeper you understand faiths, the more
they become similar however. Well good luck. Perhaps I shouldn't have picked on you, but I
just hate to see people drops names and terms without being able to illustrate them.
wavez2000
replies to
Kristal_Rose 
im doing just fine in my walk with christ, and i dont need to "illustrate" or "prove" anything to
anyone and im not persuing this arguement any further so let's just drop it..i know who i am
in christ jesus. 

Kristal_Rose replies to wavez2000 1.5.22
Apparently I chose to misunderstand the underlying attitudinal intent of your comments, and considered it an invitation, however, you're quite right to drop this dialogue. It would be bad karma for both of us the way we are behaving. It's my nature to go through a persons testimony with a fine tooth comb whethar I agree with it or not. I dissect them like clocks to see what makes them tick, then copy any good part designs I hadn't encountered, and try to show them how my own handiwork operates. My philosophy is that everyone should know and understand every possibility. I also can't shut up. I apologize for being weary on you. I'll not get into comparative metaphysics with you again now that I understand how you contain yourself.

What do you believe is the ultimate way to get revenge on a cheating partner? 1.3.19
Kristal_Rose
               Bless their relationship.
Kristal_Rose
               My-ex (of 7 years & 2 kids) married my brother. They're still my best friends.
               I had a deep two year relationship till recently with a woman who continued her existing relationship
               most of the while.
Kristal_Rose 1.3.19
               My (I wish) girlfriend, Tara and I went to a rave at her neighbors apartment. It got to that point
               where everyone was pairing up to leave (and I couldn't find her) so I went home (her place) took a
               shower and changed, hoping that perhaps she might direct a lot of sexual energy my way. I heard
               her in the loft when I got out, she heard me too since I glimpsed her looking out her curtain at me.
               Then her and her one night stand had a few rounds together while I had no choice but to listen. My
               karma I suppose for even amplifying the kali energy I saw on the floor. I quietly packed and left in
               the morning, tears in my eye, when buses were running and was followed by ascension of mary
               energy. I had been hoping for quite a while to have a warm day to go to the beach with her, this day
               was warm enough but i wanted to go to purify myself further alone. She called the moment I got
               home, talked her way into accompanying me (we went to malibu to tan and fly kites), arrived with
               apology flowers. My theme song was one I had so disdained a week earlier, Cher's "Do you believe
               in life after love?" I looked away from her most of the ride, and instead took on a new found
               appreciation of Blondies "Heart of Glass" wearing some thin skyblue shades she handed me. She'd
               ask me backing up if it was clear, and I'd answer yes without even looking. In spite of the fact that
               she's known I wanted to marry her at first sight, and insisted that we not talk about anything other
               than sun, water, and sand, she still had to keep laughing about her latest exploit to me. I definitely
               feel like I failed to make a positive change here, but I'm not going to take it personally. To be
               honest she's been quite a bad influence, I was on that dance floor with a lot of pissed-off energy
               manifest as bullish stomping steps and such, because I resented that it wasn't her I was dancing
               with. I was definitely the raunchiest thing out there, outdoing all the dominatrixes, cross-dressers,
               and other folks with a lot of spiritual energy, years of theater dance training, and an absolutely
               anything goes attitude. It was far more severe than the art-party in which I met Tara and made out
               on the floor with another gal in time to the music for an hour with an audience gathered. I'm just
               looking for a Walton's relationship. Maybe I'm not. Why else would it always be so crazy? Crazier in
               fact with each new relationship; the married out of highschool actually was sort of 'Waltons' for a
               couple years.

Which of the following substances do you believe to be an aphrodisiac?
Kristal_Rose
               The halucinogens, including marijuana which oddly seems to be missing from this list.
               There are also many herbs purported to be aphrodisiacs including ma huang, gotu kola, and damiana.
               It's been 25 years since I read that in Jeanne Rose's herbal, so I could be off. I had neither
               access to herbs nor puberty at that point to make it worth remembering better.
Kristal_Rose
               Bearded clams?
juliw
               marijuana and chocolate covered strawberries, especially if I have both on the same night
Kristal_Rose replies to juliw 1.3.19
               No argument there. My mom served chocolate covered brandied fruits on my marriage.
               Strawberries with sugar, or blackberries with cream and sugar were a couple first dates with
               other gals.
juliw replies to Kristal_Rose
               The chocolate covered brandied fruits sound delicious! We used to have a restaurant around here
               that served "tuxedo" strawberries. They would dip the strawberries in both white chocolate and
               milk chocolate, so they appeared to be wearing little tuxedos. Yum!
Kristal_Rose replies to juliw
               Yum yum. The trick is to soak dried fruit. I have some thats been steeping for a year now waiting
               for the right romantic celebration.
juliw replies to Kristal_Rose
               I will have to try to make them sometime. I wonder if it would work with amaretto soaked
               strawberries. Doesn't that sound good?
Kristal_Rose replies to juliw
               Oooh, sultry. I think Ouzo would be better with strawberries, Amaretto might be better with
               cherries, creme de methe pineapples, brandy apples, triple-sec pears, scotch rhubarb, rum
               peaches, tequila mangos, vodka tangerines, in iced chocolate, in a hot spring, with turquoise sand, on
               a tropical mountain top.. you're not single are you?
Kristal_Rose replies to juliw
               rum-coconut, hash, or poppy seed sprinkles as appropriate. Chocolate brandied-rose petals would
               be nice too.
juliw replies to Kristal_Rose
               All of these sound really good(and you're right about amaretto going better with cherries--and we
               would throw in a few almonds in that one). The only one you mentioned that doesn't sound good is
               the scotch rhubarb. I don't like scotch. The turquoise sand sounds gorgeous. Turquoise is my
               favorite color. I don't know of any places that have turquoise sand, so I will just have to die some
               white sand. Yeah, I am single, by the way. I have never tried rose petals, but the idea of dipping
               them in chocolate. I heard that there is some kind of edible gold that people use for fancy cakes
               and stuff. I think dipping the rose petals in the edible gold would be a very nice touch.
juliw replies to Kristal_Rose
               I just noticed a typo. I meant to say that I have never tried rose petals, but the idea of dipping
               them in chocolate sounds great. I guess that's what happens when you have to pay attention to
               speed and accuracy all day long.
Kristal_Rose replies to juliw
               It sure would. A friend gave me greek rose-petal jam that is out of this world. I imagine it's simply
               actual gold powder (wow, were getting decadently sumptuous  ). I was struggling to make the
               scotch work too, though my renn-faire clan used to make a wedding beverage from La Phroaig
               single-malt scotch, apple cider, and cream that was fantastic.
               Next question: anywhere near Los Angeles or somewhere I'd want to visit?
Kristal_Rose replies to juliw
               I read it exactly as you intended. It wasn't till you pointed out the typo that I noticed the words
               were virtual.
Kristal_Rose replies to juliw
               Pumpkin flowers are candied. I imagine all sorts of things are done with flowers. I'm an amateur
               perfumist of sorts. I read in as a child that a whole bathtub of rose petals is required to make one
               drop of rose attar. It'd be fun to see if crushing them like grapes for wine helps.
juliw replies to Kristal_Rose
               I have heard of the edible flowers, but have not gotten around to trying them yet. In response to
               your question, I doubt you would want to visit my hometown of Akron, Ohio (about an hour south of
               Cleveland, in case you don't know). I really don't know how they do the edible gold. As for crushing
               the rose petals into wine, I wonder if that is how they make rosehips tea. I love rosehips tea.
juliw replies to Kristal_Rose
               The rose petal jam sounds very good. A friend of mine made me this basil jelly that is horrible. I
               have had it for about a month, and tasted it once. One of these days, I will have to dump it out and
               offer her the jar back. She asked me once how I liked it, and I lied and said I tried it on toast, and
               it was pretty good.Shouldn't have done that, I know, but I didn't want to hurt her feelings.
juliw replies to Kristal_Rose
               Oh, one more thing! What kinds of perfume do you make? Is it pretty much alcohol mixed with
               flowers and extracts? When I was in high school, I had this kit that came up with a cleanser base,
               and you could mix whatever you wanted to make a cleansing cream. Mine was cucumber and pear
               mixed.
juliw replies to Kristal_Rose
               Well, I am signing off for now, because I worked for ten hours today, and have been at SC for a
               couple of hours tonight, and my eyes are getting a little tired. I'll look for your replies tomorrow.
Kristal_Rose replies to juliw
               It's been sweet. A charity case here has been absorbing my time I would have rather spent with
               you. Pure gold is unlikely to react in the body. I meant crushing them into attar, an ourrageously
               expensive concentrated perfume oil dew. I have many jellies. I was fond of a licorice-mint variety
               made by monks in northern california. You're right, I've never been interested in Ohio. I just mix
               pure essential oils. I can totally imagine you in pear and cucumber. Perfume requires steam
               distillation processes. It takes 1500 pounds of blue chamomile petals to make a liter of perfume
               oil. We'd never afford them if they came from the U.S.
               Visit my site, www.ereiam.com and see my listing of oils. I'll make you something. Well, sweet
               dreams.
[See "Can there be morality without a belief in the divine?"]
 
 

Where is the most uncomfortable place you have ever had sex?
juliw
               the bathtub-nowhere near as much fun as I thought it would be
Kristal_Rose replies to juliw 1.3.19
               I was sort of swimming in a clawfoot tub full of ice between dances the other night. It was at the
               neighboring apartment of my girlfriend who was setting out to find a clawfoot tub that week.
               Oak hot tubs under the stars are much better.
 

Have you ever had a practical joke backfire?
Kristal_Rose 1.3.20
               I remember when I was a teen and a bunch of other teens seemed to me to be treating a toddler
               like a dog, so when the ball rolled my way I too tossed the ball to the toddler, but instead of saying
               "go get the ball" I tried to show them my interpretation of their behavior by saying "Go fetch". I
               got some really despicable glares out of that one.
Kristal_Rose 1.3.20
               OK, now I remember my practical joke story.
               At age 16 I was at the beach with my 5 year younger brother and his friends (drove them to an
               overnight camp out). I recruited one to help me with a pit trap. I would lower him in by his ankles
               and we dug it quite deep. I gathered twigs and plastic from the hillside to cover it, and then we
               built a delightful castle around it with seashell ornamentation and even a stack of shells to lure the
               creative, non-destructive types. We waited in the get-away car (a Datsun 260 Z 2+2) and two
               young boys started charging towards it. They paused and we wondered what went wrong; then they
               charged full steam and leaped in the air. The first one vanished instantly; the second flailed at the
               perimeter in wild distress before becoming consumed as well.
               I landed an emergency hospital case of poison oak from head to toe and all sensitive places
               inbetween that had me tying my arms to the bedposts at night, and feeling the effects a couple
               weeks later on a camping trip through mexico. It turns out that the sticks I used were poison oak.
               This was long before I had a good grasp of karma obviously.
Kristal_Rose replies to BrianW 1.3.20
               Brian, I got to get some sleep since I only stayed up for the equinoxe, but right off I can suggest
               that you didn't get that job 'playing fetch' because you set your sights too low. I myself got low
               enough a couple months ago where everything had fallen apart in much the same way. Finally I was
               passing out and never leaving the house. Asking god for what I needed (mostly the company of an
               inspirational friend) pulled me out of it. All I can say for the moment is it's all between you and God.
               The jobs and family and all that are only secondary manifestations. I've seen many people change
               their tune for the better when I stopped falling into their tragedies.
               Unfortunately my son lives with an alcoholic dad (my brother), and has been talking about getting a
               similar job. I'll have to make sure things are alright with him. If it turns out you are running some
               parallel, I'll turn over my cures to you when I come up with them.
BrianW replies to Kristal_Rose
               Brian, I got to get some sleep since I only stayed up for the equinoxe, but right off I can suggest
               that you didn't get that job 'playing fetch' because you set your sights too low.
               I applied at a different movie theatre than the one I worked at before. With prior experience
               you'd think I'd get hired. Nope. Walgreens, Good Times, Pizza Hut, Safeway, King Sooper
               (supermarket chain), Wal-Mart, Sam's Club, Subway, Blockbuster, Ann Taylor, Virgin Megastore,
               Bath & Body Works, Barne's & Noble, SoundTrax (electronics store), the Sierra Club, Denver
               Public Library, Journey shoestore, The Audio Book Store, Russel's Convenience, Mile High Comics,
               it's Your Move (gaming store), 7-11, the Downtown Denver Hilton, and every radio station in Denver.
               These are all places that never even called me back! I was underqualified to sell bath beads, put
               things on shelves, ad nauseum. I couldn't even get janatroial work Kris! I couldn't convince someone
               to hire me to clean toilets for god's sake. And that's WITH prior experience! Can you imagine how
               bad this would be if I had none?
Kristal_Rose replies to BrianW
               There are several things going on. For one, for most of these you are actually over-qualified, and
               people have many practical and sociological reasons not to hire someone over-qualified. Mostly it's
               your attitude though. What a drag. I wouldn't want someone on my crew that didn't think themself
               worthy of scrubbing toilets. I want them to expand the company and pay for my house in
               Amsterdam or Rio. I wouldn't expect you'd try at the moment, even though you could. "I can" and
               "just do it" are massively powerful mantra's. You have to take on responsibility for your well being
               that can't be measured on a résumé. It's not what you're doing, but what's running through your
               mind. It actually seems you made some great choices, particularly the gaming store and radio
               stations. I found in a town that small that your best bet is to build an ongoing rapport with the
               proprietors, showing up every couple weeks till they give you a chance. Interpersonal stuff is what
               lands 80% of jobs, and certainly any worth having. Think, who would you rather hire if you were the
               game shop owner, someone who will take any job they can get, or someone who's dead set on being a
               fantastic game salesperson. It is worth your effort to write not only a cover letter, but actually
               totally tailor your résumé to the job you really want; make them believe it. Don't waste you time
               with Walgreens; life is short.
               I just looked through my files and found documents I've written on writing résumés and finding
               work. I used to teach résumé writing and word processing and have had success getting through to
               COO's and VP's of companies you know without the formal education and background that might be
               expected. If I can find your email (save me some effort, huh?), I'll send you some of that. Much of
               it is founded on a fantastic book called "What color is your parachute" interjected with what I
               found works and is really going on out there. It's advice to land you a dream job, and won't be of
               nearly as much help applying at Walgreens.
               BTW, I too played "look how hard I try losing" for awhile. It's all attitude.
BrianW
               For one, for most of these you are actually over-qualified,
               Yeah, but a boy's gotta eat, you know what I'm sayin'?
               I wouldn't want someone on my crew that didn't think themself worthy of scrubbing toilets.
               Actually that's what they seem to think of me. In the only other interview I actually got I was very
               good with posture and attitude. Then I never heard from them again.
               I found in a town that small
               Samll? Denver? I've lived her emore than half my life. I know for a fact we are nothing even
               resembling small.
Kristal_Rose
               What's Denver 80,000 200,000?
               Do you have a dozen gaming and comic shops to choose from? Probably not. If you can't look the
               proprietors of the few shops there in the eye, you best leave town. You don't get it. You're
               interviewing them, not the other way around. Act like a robot and be treated like one. If you're still
               at w_b@h.c I'll send you some stuff unless you don't want it.
               Even if you only want to pay the bills, still better to spend a day on one resume for a job your ideally
               suited for than a day sending 20 covers to jobs in which your just a face in the crowd. Do some
               statistical time cost and probability analysis and you'll find that you're still much better off
               concentrating on a dream job.
   Kristal_Rose
               Another way of putting it: You are unconsciously hypnotising them to agree that you are far less
               than you potential when you should be hypnotising both them and you to believe that you can do
               anything you want. Ask twisty or a dozen other folks here (and avoid the dozen that will tell you life
               is a lousy crap shoot).
[See "Should same sex couples have the right to marry legally?"]
 

What is the SR-71 Blackbird's top speed?
Kristal_Rose 1.3.20
               3.2 I'd guess, Around 1780 mph?
               We were buzzed by a couple of them out in some nevada ghost town, apparently in or near the
               Nellis Air Force base I now see on the map. We didn't hear them coming, they were less than a
               couple hundred feet above us, and the noise rocked everything. It scared my two year old son so
               much that he was afraid of anything noisy such as toilets for a couple years.

How do you, as an individual, define "evil"? 00.10.12
Kristal_Rose
               Evil is the obstruction of joy. It takes forms like encouraging distrust, destruction, and limitation.
               Control of others philosophy of self-empowerment is the worst ie. pushing addictions or claiming
               people are worthless or have no shot at enlightenment on earth are some of the worst.
               I've seen a 13 year old singer who just got signed that week aggressively singing "You losers, pump
               me" at a party I went too. I talked her afterwards and she had developed a split personality; she
               was an innocent stuffed animal kind of girl who was unaware of how she performs on stage. I had
               one evening in which almost no matter what I typed into my search engine revealed more and more
               severe war technology involving genocide, and the transformation of mankind into a gold based life
               forms capable of withstanding matter-reprogramming nuclear blast waves. I've seen angelic people
               immersed in visible red-energy hatred relationships. Evil takes many forms. If it intereferes with
               love of self, society, god, and all creation, it's evil.
joalis
               It's probably bad intent. Oblivious type rudeness isn't evil, but intentional rudeness is. Breaking
               something on purpose is evil. Breaking something on accident and neglecting to apologize isn't.
Kristal_Rose replies to joalis
               So murder, rape, and pillage is not evil if done by religious zealot's in religious battle on soulless
               heathen's? Presuming they believe these people to be in league with satan and are cleansing for the
               sake of virtue.
               A secret organization protecting the planets eco-sustainability by selective population
               reduction..Evil?
               Developing viruses without asking who your clients are or what purposes your R&D will serve.. Evil?
               Suggesting that a new theory, nuclear fission, might be used to stop Hitler, but might melt down the
               planet (uncertain till tested).. Evil?
               Using that technology on a warring archipelago after Hitler was no longer a threat to prove to the
               world your might as a nation.. Evil?
               Accepting the philosophy that ethics and morals are hinderances to practical and realistic success in
               todays society.. Evil?
               - Creating jobs or teaching detachment from material things by breaking things or designing
               disposable goods.. Good?
               Making someone seriously contemplate their stance by being strategically rude.. Good?
               Breaking something on accident is neither good nor bad (though I don't believe in accidents), but
               failing to apologize demonstrates a lack of compassion, which certainly isn't good, and in my eye's is
               the root of the proliferation of evil.
               I imagine the average criminal can justify their behavior as being righteous given their
              circumstances, or they probably would have sought alternative means.
               Are psychopathic criminals evil? If feelings don't exist or reality is a delusion, then no behavior is
               really bad.
               The seed of evil in the hearts of men is a subtle and contagious thing. It is obfuscated by
               justification, dispassion, takes the form of revenge, not caring, being led into despair ones self, or
               becoming angry or bitter. Everything short of living each moment and interaction with out being,
               feeling, or expressing the depth of your love could be considered a shade of evil.
               - Reverance for the manifestation of creation before our eyes. Manifesting wih love. No time for
               regrets or anger at anything.
               It is possible.
joalis replies to Kristal_Rose
               OK, so maybe some of your examples were evil. I have a habit of making too broad of statements.
               - I'd have to disagree on two of your statements though. Failing to apologize is not evil. Depending on
               the circumstances, I might even say that refusing to apologize isn't even evil. It might not
               demonstrate anything but being in a hurry or believing you have nothing to fell sorry about. Your
               other point, making someone seriously contemplate their stance by being strategically rude, I'm not
               sure what you mean by that. If it means dropping nonverbal hints to change someone's mind or
               behavior, I'm all in favor of that. It makes people think of things you didn't have to tell them. It
               does someone a favor. I don't think you need to be rude about it, but a lot of people think it is rude
               (in itself) and I'm not really sure why.
Kristal_Rose replies to joalis
               I'm just saying 'could be', I don't think being rude as a cynical jest to reflect to someone their own
               behavior is the route to go. they've probably had plenty of that karma already and mistook it as fuel
               for the fire, not a lesson. You shouldn't feel sorry when you apologize (or ever, for that matter),
               forgive yourself and don't do it again. The apology is to convey your compassion, sympathy, and
               empathy to the victim. It's traditional to be the main one to that if you were the cause. If you ran
               over your neighbor's cat, your apology helps prevent them from feeling that the world is a
               miserable uncaring place, and clarifies that you did not intentionally run over their cat. To
               accidentally cause such harm without ever apologizing would make this world much grimmer.
               Following a philosophy that makes this world a darker, less caring place is evil.

Twistermime
               I don't. There is no evil...no good...just human....
Kristal_Rose replies to Twistermime
               I don't believe you.
               Are you telling me you have no preference for the quality of your experience? Have you perhaps
               reached a state of surrender, knowing you are taken care of? Is it all for the good now? or
               amusement or karmic returns?
               Pain and misery are still possibilities. For anyone short of full realisation, there exists the possibility
               of having 'another' deprive them of anything including their liberty or soul. Ultimately this will come
               to pass, but when you bring in the word human, you're still hinting at time/space dynamics.
               I would like to know in great depth what you mean by no good or evil. Perhaps we share a common
               philosophy. I am guilty of releasing all sorts of terrors, then conquering them. The latter makes it
               creation, if it were just the former, I'd have to call it evil. You're awake now, will I regret it when
               you come into power, supposing you do?
joalis replies to Kristal_Rose
               I follow a philosophy that makes life more realistic and efficient. It's not darker or less caring, it's
               simpler. I'd prefer that apologies were always implied. If you know something is an accident, that
               should be enough to shrug it off and move on.
Kristal_Rose replies to joalis
               You sound like me a few years ago. My thank's were generally implied as well. I felt that my
               appreciation of a gift would be apparent in my interaction with and exaltation of it. I felt that
               apologies and thanks that were not heartfelt were superficial and worse than no recognition at all.
               What I later learned was that the incidents and gifts were incidental props. That the true
               opportunity was to add value to each other's lives through words of appreciation for each other,
               even if you might incidentally add that you actually hate orange sweaters. Ten years from now, the
               orange sweater from your aunt won't matter, that you were able to look her in the eyes and smile
               together will.
Twistermime replies to Kristal_Rose
               The answer to everything you just asked me is in you. Listen. Remember.
               - Good and evil are mere illusions that bind us to what we believe is real.
Twistermime replies to Kristal_Rose
               Simply be. Do not judge anything. Do not say anything is good or anything is bad, because if you say
               you are good then that also means you are bad because bad is the balance of good and equates to
               you having duality. The god within you is not a duality. It is the perfect alignment of itself.
               - Ramtha said this.....and I am trying to acheive this. I am happier than I've ever been. I walked in the
               forest yesterday and listened to nature. I listened to myself. I embraced a tree and felt its power
               from its roots below the ground straight up and out the top shooting towards the sky. A beautiful
               vibration. I realized how far removed I have become from what its natural. From what is real.
               - To me the truth is, my truth is....There is no God.
               - I am god. In here. Inside me. Inside you. No flowing beards and rules and laws. Just light and love.
               - I had to walk through the shadows to get here. I had to hate and I had to despair. And I did. These
               last couple of years were black for me. I embraced it. I needed it. I felt helpless and I hurt and I
               needed to express that. I Hated. Hate made me feel powerful and untouchable but it was killing
               me. It was a reflection of the hate I had for myself. I mirrored it outward towards most humans. I
               saw them as stupid and worthless. I was cruel if not in actions then in thoughts. I had to go there to
               reach here. I have come full circle. I love myself. I am naked, real, awake and unfearful. I need no
               walls now, no masks, no shadows to hide in. I am joy.
               - I have found my perfect lover..............life
joalis replies to Kristal_Rose
               You don't need words to add value to another person's life.
Kristal_Rose replies to joalis
               No you don't. It's a conveient media. As is physical reality. You could choose to bypass operating on
               the physical plane, but what would it's purpose be then?
Kristal_Rose replies to Twistermime
               Was the land of the shadows your first phase of awakening, or what you awoke from? For me it was
               my second phase of awakening, and I still make visits there. Love for myself or anything made my
               world bloom. I never really tasted hatred like you have, and what I did have was mostly low
               self-esteem. I get irritable to the point of seething and snapping when I am not in harmony with my
               inner guide (such as advice is not forthcoming, or worse, misleading). I had to take up drinking to
               get my brother to find work, there are other times I have had to compromise taking on things I
               found distasteful to inspire a reciprocal positive change elsewhere. You are right, the more good I
               am, the more evil becomes my shadow, in my ego state. In my non-ego state, the world is a
               reflection of my own condition, hence compassion and joy are still my preference. I equate joy with
               good. Are you saying that you find joy in play and suffering alike, or that you merely stop judging
               and are left only with the reflection of your own joy? Have you attempted relishing manifesting
               destruction yet?
               {I act like I don't know what you are about, in spite of the fact that I feel what you are about, and
               am just trying to put my finger on something tangible in words, ya know what I mean?} You say
               non-judgement, see neither good nor evil, yet you seem to exhibit a preference for self-love over
               self-hatred. I see that in terms of your duality argument, yet self-love is no less a duality of
               perception and creation than is the flavor self-hatred. I think your philosophy could be phrased "Do
               as thou wilt", a slogan scientology borrowed from Crowley. My ministerial slogan, should I choose to
               inherit it, is "Do only that which is right", which is wildly up for interpretation, potentially running the
               gamut from heaven on earth to total-genocide & nano-propogation of distant stars.
               What if I had a storm obliterate your house? I don't do that kind of thing, and in my current state
               I'm sure it would reciprocally come back to me. But IF I did, would you pass judgement on that?
               Am I reminding you of what you experienced years ago? You've reached a state of god-hood.
               Consider now polytheism in which the capacity exists to infringe upon others. For one, that brings us
               right back to mundane physics as a viable platform for equality.
               I dreamed you awake, you are dreaming me challenging you to define your world view.
               My girlfriend / soulmate was awake while fearing evil and practicing "do as you wilt". I wouldn't
               have thought it possible. I had made false presumptions of the prerequisite philosophies and
               attitudes required for awakening. You seem to be halfway between her world view and mine. I am
               'all is for the good, you create your own enemy as an impetus for creation', you seem to be 'there is
               no good or evil, nor enemy, follow your bliss', she was 'pray for good, fight fire with fire'.
               I think the means of determining where you stand, is to ask what would be the explanation of an
               enemy and what could it achieve?
               I dare to think that when you hear a car shout 'focus', that you have left behind a disconnected
               observer reality in which someone simply wanted you to move, and that that shout came from your
               unified reality to you (still a duality, but quite useful) and also expressed a higher more personal
               meaning of 'focus'. I doubt you have yet lived in the realm in which that other person is another
               individual entity, but has chosen as part of the collective to say something to you at that higher level.
               I don't know if you are juggling world views of '1st person', 'narrative', etc. When you write to me,
              am I a script you had in the back of your head earlier, am I you as you think now on the fly, am I a
               tete-a-tete with god or your higher self, or am I the person Kristal, and if so do you believe me to
               be independently consciously in tune with your internal script, out of the blue, or in tune only
               because of laws of synchronicity?
               Me and them -> Me and it -> I -> We (I)
               Which is it Gurl? Love K
Twistermime replies to Kristal_Rose
               My life is taking on the glimmer of simplicity
               I just have to be
               that is all
               nothing complex

               just

               self centered
               fearless
               loving all that is

               I have no enemy
               You are me
               We are god

               Can you feel that?

               There is no death so I have nothing to fear
               Strip me bare
               take my "things"
               kill my loved ones
               leave me for dead

               whatever...I now know my truth.

               Thank you for your words...my eyes love them

joalis replies to Kristal_Rose
               I don't exactly understand what you mean. I lived most of my childhood, adolescence and young
               adulthood using as few words as possible to convey what I wanted. I always found that to be more
               convenient. I've never liked to waste my breath on things that I could say with actions, gestures
               and such. People who don't like to talk should be able to fit in just as well as those who don't mind.
               That's one reason I find formalities in language so uncomfortable. I say 'Thanks' instead of 'Thank
               you' and I'd prefer to go the long way around something rather than say 'excuse me.' I'm
               digressing, I know. I just think the whole world would be better off if we just didn't have so many
               expectations of other people. If you never expect an apology, you won't feel offended if you don't
               get one.
Kristal_Rose replies to Twistermime
               That's the top end and a great way all right. Complications along the way can be entertaining though.
               You live in one of the best world's I've been to. You know you are one with the eternal script and
               therefore can put tracking total conscious authorship of the script on hold indefinitely without
               repurcussion. I couldn't stop at that point, though I see merit in it.
TellerChick
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Kristal_Rose replies to TellerChick
               You have a protected life if that's evil.
Kristal_Rose replies to hildagard
               I quite disagree. If evil is the desire to corrupt or destroy good, then I'd say it's not in everyone
               and can be eradicated by not touching evil in the first place. Evil is a reaction to evil having touched
               you. If you can remove all traces of being touched by evil, even as a victim of compassion, then
               there will be none left in you. It's a very advanced state of being, I would say for the most part
               that you are right, few people reach or maintain that plateau, and the rest must simply not act upon
               tinges of evil conception. (unless of course they want to pay the cost.)
hildagard replies to Kristal_Rose
               You are right, but I'm not sure that everyone are able to do it.
Kristal_Rose replies to hildagard
               I don't know, I suspect that some of those prison salvations are legitimate. If even one person can
               flush out evil, then why not all? I do doubt most of them are likely; it would require years of
               unprogramming, motive inspired by a new world view, good teachers, etc. And even then, I believe
               some people are written to be evil on purpose. Some, to overcome themselves, others to keep the
               game going and allow others to be contastingly good. But I'm just making excuses. I've seen first
               hand a few times plateaus in which everyone and everything around you is good. If enough people
               could maintain that we'd have a heaven on Earth. I haven't met anyone that saw an equal opportunity
               for good and evil, yet chose evil. I can't stand to hear the way my neighbor kids act with each other,
               but they act great at my place. They know that if they can't get along, they get kicked out. I was
               teaching them piano yesterday. I find them all something to do; when we had to take turns, one of
               them got to run the timer. I also train them from the first moment to teach each other. Good is
               empowerment; in contrast I suspect at their home that evil is the only self-empowerment, and good
               is merely it's absence.
hildagard replies to Kristal_Rose
               But think in this way, world would be stupid without evil. What makes the whole plot in the 80% of
               the movies? The bad guys.
Kristal_Rose replies to hildagard
               It's occurred to me. I like a just safe level of confronting demons, but if you'd ever experienced
               that divine grace for a few days straight, you'd be wondering for the time how you could have ever
               thought that. Actually you'd be wondering later; divine grace doesn't have room for even
               considering such junk. And that state is like stupid, nothing to worry about whatsoever, just love
               and let the best happen around you.
 

Should same sex couples have the right to marry legally?
BrianW replies to brodycog
               You're working under two assumtpions with that statment. 1: That I believe in God. I don't. 2: That
               there IS a god. There isn't. Next argument please?
Kristal_Rose replies to BrianW 1.3.24
               So brian, ya still in 'woe is me', 'wallow' mode? ya never sent me or even commented a 'sure, why
               not' on those 'make jobs happen' techniques.
Kristal_Rose replies to BrianW
               Yeah, you're a pathetic loser. Life sucks, and it's certainly all hopeless for you. Ya happy now?  :-)
BrianW replies to Kristal_Rose
               No, I'm much happier now. Now I'm worried about my Dad having been fired.
Kristal_Rose replies to BrianW 1.3.25
               How far will it go Brian?
BrianW replies to Kristal_Rose
               Well, the life of everyone is this family has been on a down hill slide since November.
               - 1: I tell a girl I'm inteested in pursuing a romantic relationship, and she not only rejects me becasue
               of mya ge (I was 18 (19 now), she was 23), then rubs in my face by fliritng with every guy we run
               into (we worked together).
               2: I stupidly quit a job only because my managers were harrasing me and the stress was causing
               body order problems that have yet to reverse themselves.
               3: My Dad steals my hard earned money. More then $1100, including Christmas and Brithday money
               I got from my Grandmother.
               4: The house gets sold without our consent. This is followed by a rent increase that stresses us to
               the financial brekaing point.
               5: My grandfather gets in a car accidnt, and the Sundance, which had been so loyal to us over the
               years, ends up ebing scrapped.
               6: My aunt has surgery on her hands, resulting in a further stressing of the financial situation by
               way of lost time and wages.
               7: The insurance company tries to screw us. Upside: We got the bastards!
               8: My uncle's girlfriend has a miscariage. They recently started negotiating their break-up.
               9: A place I applied for job wise is willing to hire me; for less than I made at the theatre for only 3
               days a week. My share of the rent is 400/month. With that job I would've made little more than
               200/month.
               10: My cousin Becky is in the lunch room at school, when a girl she knows has aa seizure and dies.
               Another child ran to the school nurse who did nothing. becky herself ran out to get help and the
               teachers put her back in that cafeteria. Finally Paramedics arrive but it's too late. They didn't even
               think to check her neck for obstructions, as it turns out was the cause. If I were that child's
               parents I'd sue the fuck of tat school.
               11: My dad gets in a car accidnet, and is fired the next day.
               - How can ANYBODY be positive in a situation like this?
Kristal_Rose replies to BrianW
               That's not really what it's about. You'll be amazed what can happen when you find your connection
               with the universe, and you have a good picture of what happens when you reject it. Sorry your path
               is so tragic. Rethink who you are. It wont be easy.

How many of ya'll actually have jobs?
Kristal_Rose
               Not I. Half a dozen career possibilities all of which I have education, skills, knack, etc. for, but I do
               everything in slow motion and no one wants to pay for that. I'm therefore heading towards things
               like illustrating my own books, creating gallery art, working in a think tank, or anything else in which
               there is little "production volume : time" ratio concern.
               Praying things into being and maintaining precedents for positive human interactions is my job at the
               moment. I believe that I influence every register clerk and telemarketer I converse with.
               I am trying to work up some estimates for building artists websites. I have to time making a second
               one and research the competition next.
Kristal_Rose replies to kate
               Schucks, ya aren't not oughta be usin' "ain't" then. Din't yer mammy holler that one at ye a time 'r
               two?
spidertea replies to Kristal_Rose
               How do you support yourself if you don't have a job?
Kristal_Rose replies to spidertea
               $760 month until I figure out what I can and should be doing. I just went on a vision quest of
               several tribes and a hike through sacred native grounds, so i haven't slept in a couple days.
               Someone I just met has renewed my direction for the moment: land and people should support
               themselves, so I have to make some presentations quick, I've been nominated to advise on LA
               housing. A lot's at stake. I want to bridge between grassroots and what admin could be. Please
               understand I'll have to leave SC for a couple days, starting about now.
Kristal_Rose replies to spidertea
               40,000 on the program, 150,000 on the waiting list, and it seems that I'm the only one on the board
               with access to the plan and the ability to understand it. 200 pages of policy, where a single line
               might say something like "We do not adopt federal guidelines on affirmative action." They sure
               didn't mention that in their presentation. They passed around the book for 20 minutes while talking
               then asked "any feedback?" I had them transfixed for quite awhile speaking on "procative
               collective nativisation". "Fruit trees in unfenced yards", co-habitation and household charters
               contracted through existing housemate referral services (could triple clients served), internet
               kiosks to trade dog shampooing for brake service or floral arranging, with no profiteering or
               overhead to increase the quality of life while reducing the cost, ultimately to nothing. "Paths to
               land-people co-sufficiency". I have a lot of work to do now.
 

Have you ever been in love with two people at the same time?
Kristal_Rose
               A couple times.
               The last time I was waiting a couple years to see which one I'd marry. I kinda proposed to both of
               them, and they both broke up with me.
               Back when I was a married guy (at the 4 year point), I suggested an open marriage. She did my
               housemate/best friend/co-worker the next day. At the 7 year point, she left me for my brother (I
               now have a 5 year old niece ( ay today)). I just asked last night if she would have stayed with me,
               had I not been wandering in spirit at the 7 year point; she answered that it was really over at the 4
               year point when I suggested I was looking for something more. I had been obsessed with her best
               friend for a dozen years, all through our marriage, and intensly, a couple years after.
               It sounds fine in theory, but I've still never really seen it work. Both my latter girlfriends had been
               seeing others, and I was even able to be friends with their other SO's, but still, I don't
               recommend it at all.
hildagard
               I never ever loved anyone.
               The only feeling I am able to have is pitty.
Kristal_Rose replies to hildagard
               For yourself I presume? Yeah, it's pretty tough to love in that state.
               Accept a wind of change. Let go, love and be loved. When someone throws some warmth or charm
               your way, react likewise, not with, self-pity. You'll find though that self-pity was a safe cocoon, that
               the real obstacle to overcome was fear. Your world will change though. Most people are as loving as
               you'll let them be.

Stable life, or wild life?
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               Wild, but I want both. I've had both. I rewrite myself every few months. I always require profound
               substance, but I always like new flavors and methods. One can be Zen at a rave or Out of control
               on the farm.
               I would really love a life-long partner to share constant change with.
 

Can there be morality without a belief in the divine?
Kristal_Rose
               Of course, the old golden rule, "do unto others as you would have them do unto you" works for the
               betterment of society and builiding personal relationships, no god required. I would even go as far
               as saying that many spiritual beliefs can screw up a persons morality.
               On one hand, karma (positive or negative minded), pentinence, righteous fear of god, hoping for
               heaven, etc. thinking are all accounting systems that don't truly directly lead to love founded
               interaction with society. On another, once you've found your prayers answered, especially in the
               form of pure internal joy, then you are more free to give without need or expectancy.
               I like myself to live as if I had a grand view of it all, and have myself act on behalf of the best for
               the whole. I do of course take care of myself, and also keep in mind that many people aren't
               receptive to help.
micah
               Yes. Along with immorality with belief in the divine.
Zang
               Yeah. I suppose, but it isn't the same. To use an architectural metaphor, it is like trying to build
               something without a solid foundation. A morality based on atheism would not withstand as much
               stress. It is far too easy to rationalise ones misdeeds when following a philosophy of nihilism, or
               existentialism. If everything is ultimately meaningless, how is is possible to cause harm?
romkey replies to Zang
               I'm not sure the absence of The Divine precludes meaning. Things are ultimately personally
               meaningful if not universally meaningful. You still think you exist... and that's essentially "good
               enough". You probably want to be treated in a certain way; you can figure out that if you treat other
               people in a certain way they'll treat you the way you want. That can give rise to a system of
              principles and agreements as to how to treat one another, without dependence upon a big invisible
               bully.
               - I don't know if it works but I like the idea.
Kristal_Rose replies to Zang
               I contend that existentialism is a form of divine thinking, and it leads to either karmic 'treat your
               mirror well', or to vastly paraphase you, 'I am the ultimate eternal deity anyhow, so who cares?'.
               Of course even 'big bully is watching you' thinkers can get all sorts of conceptions going like
               "animals haven't souls, gays are satanic scourges, etc."
Zang replies to Kristal_Rose
               Ah yes! All part of life's rich pageant!  :-)
juliw
               Sure-morality just means rightness or wrongness of character. So, I would think you could have
               good character and still not believe in a divine being. I don't know for sure, though, because I do
               believe in God. BUT, that doesn't necessarily mean I have better character or better morals than
               someone who doesn't
juliw replies to Kristal_Rose
               I agree with you about following the golden rule, but I do believe in God, and it kind of gives me
               hope. By the way, I went to your webside, and found it really interesting. You did a very thorough
               job of laying it out. I liked the bird sounds, but my cat was going nuts. She got on top of the TV(I
               have aol-tv) and batted at the screen. So, I will have to back to the website to explore it a little
               more.
Kristal_Rose replies to juliw
               I'm a minister (sort of new age). I believe in many religions, and unquestionably in God. But that
               wasn't the question proposed in this survey. I work with people at whatever level they're at. To
               have aethiests roaming around is unfortunate for them (i could even argue that though), but we
               certainly don't need immoral aethiests or brimstone preachers around.
juliw replies to Kristal_Rose
               I assumed when the question said a belief in the divine, it meant a belief in God. I really believe that
               people can have "good" or "bad" morals regardless of their religious beliefs (or lack there of). And
               I think is the real question proposed in the survey. The only reason I even mentioned my belief in
               God is because I really meant I can't know for sure how not believing would affect your morality,
               since I have never had that experience. I know my wording is kind of awkward, but I can't think of
               another way to get my point across. I certainly agree with you about immoral atheists and brimstone
               preachers. I guess what it boils down to is people have to do what they truly believe to be morally
               right. And, I know people could argue that maybe a murderer or rapist truly believes what they do
               is right.
Kristal_Rose replies to juliw
               I didn't have my awakening till I was 25, until then I didn't have direct constant evidence of God,
               and only had a few random paranormal events. I had really high moral standards until then,
               afterwards I aspired to saint and angel levels of ethics, went celibate, spent much time in
               meditation, prayer, service, etc. I stay in touch with spirit to see how worldly I should be. As the
               years pass, I keep getting better at integrating them both, but I have been on a lower plane for
               the last couple years. I am beginning to possibly see the virtues of miseries and strife and
               disasters and such. But I still don't want to leave the good side myself. I do things like teach the
               neighborhood kids, buy tons of baby shower gifts for a neighbor I don't know, pray away accidents,
               etc. etc.
juliw replies to Kristal_Rose
               There is some merit in miseries, strife, etc. because they help me to appreciate the good things
               even more. I, too, try to do things for others.
hildagard
               What?
Kristal_Rose replies to juliw
               I'm sure you do. I got a good feel for the complete package pretty quick, and it's that white energy
               that attracted me, balanced with brandied chocolates was too good to be true. I'll have to see if
               you have any clones in LA,CA.
Kristal_Rose replies to hildagard
               What what? you wanna talk? or ..
               What?
juliw replies to Kristal_Rose
               Let me know if you find one, and thanks for the compliment. Hey, you forgot the amaretto cherries.
               That was fun!
Kristal_Rose replies to juliw
               That's what I meant, and you know it. It started even fresher than that, I was just emphasizing
               range.
               And yes, t'was a blast, anytime.

Hypnotism
Kristal_Rose 1.3.27
               Tara say's not to take what she say's on quick moments seriously because I'm 'projecting' thoughts
               onto her. I once regained awareness to find I had just been answering Tara with words of her
               choosing; I didn't care for that one bit, but it did make me take her accusation of what i do more
               seriously. My next question to her a couple weeks later was "how then do I tell the difference
               between a persons natural inclination and my influence." All she offered was "It's not real until they
               throw their body on you", which isn't even how i define a relationship.
Kristal_Rose replies to Twistermime
               who me?
               I just got this urge to visit you   :-) :-(
Twistermime replies to Kristal_Rose
                :-) :-(
               far away :-(
Kristal_Rose replies to Twistermime
               If I ever get a car again I'll be sure to swing by.
Twistermime replies to Kristal_Rose
               I'll make tea!
Kristal_Rose replies to Twistermime
               What kind?
Twistermime replies to Kristal_Rose
               Market Spice...It's yummy!!!!!
Kristal_Rose replies to Twistermime
               Wow, that is tasty, thanks. all those woodsy herbs. Who make it?
Twistermime replies to Kristal_Rose
               It is a product from a shop in Pike Place Market.
Kristal_Rose replies to Twistermime
               Olong & pekoe, licorice root or star anise, tangerine peel, dandelion root / comfrey / clover,
               blackthorn, chicory, cloves, heathar, mullien, fig, pepper, ginger, pennyroyal, solomons seal, yarrow.
              Does that aproximate what I'm tasting?
Kristal_Rose replies to Twistermime
               & some apple. umm...
 

What are your favorite shapes?
Kristal_Rose 1.3.27
               Paisley.
               What about ovoid, bean, rhombus, trapezoid, cartoid, truncated-icosododecahedrons, stellated...
               ...drons, and my favorite.. paisley forms. There are various stella including the washington monument,
               and that of the 2001 movie it the form of a draedl or kabbalistic tree-of-life with 9 points of
               sephiroth and 32 possible paths (like the creation story) connecting them. That's a pyramidal box
               with a pyramid top. I have some really fancy geometry that couldn't be described easily also based
               on 3d molecules of the tree. Protein crystallography would be a fantastic pursuit.
               Caduceus (double helix snakes)
Kristal_Rose 1.3.27
               I also have tons of pyramids around the house, I used to make all sorts of fancy intersections of
               ovoids, boxes, curved step accordion staircases, in drafting, sculptures, and custom sheet-fab A/C
               work in Citroëns.
drdt
               I am particularly fond of toroi.
Kristal_Rose replies to drdt 1.3.27
               Bad cop, no doughnut.

If you found a baby on your doorstep, what would you do?
Kristal_Rose
               Keep it. I've been dreaming that might happen.
Twistermime
               I'd dress it like a monkeeeeee
BrianW
               OK, all those who didn't think Twist would say something about monkeys raise their hands. *cue
               sound of crickets as zero hands are raised* Yep. Figured as much.
Zang replies to Wicksy
               Mmmmm....kinderwurst!
Twistermime
               I'd send it to romkey in a cardboard box
               .....with the appropriate breathing holes of course
romkey replies to Twistermime
               yikes! you're a much better mommy than I'd ever be!
Kristal_Rose replies to Twistermime
               Take it out of the box before you punch the holes through, and line the bottom of the box with
               clumping kitty litter. See, I'm a good mommy too.
Twistermime replies to Kristal_Rose
                *LOL*
they replies to Kristal_Rose
                *LOL*